tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-69991032011-07-31T18:26:41.660+08:00Tianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693140454072658691noreply@blogger.comBlogger1171100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6999103.post-47600766007857585262009-07-08T18:29:00.003+08:002009-07-08T18:46:23.180+08:00<span style="color:#ff0000;">I noe i sldnt be missing you...but i am...<br />You can't possibly have jus stopped loving me....n i believe it must have been smth i did or did not do dat has made you changed the way you feel for me...<br /><br />is it my temper?<br />is it cus i drink too much?<br />is it cus i am too competitive?<br />is it cus you feel tied down by me?<br />is it cus i take you out too much?<br />is it cus i had my fears?<br /><br />Where have i gone wrong that you can't gif our relaionship one more try?<br />Do you know i am willing to change as long as u tell me where i have went wrong?<br />1yr 8mths wasn't easy but we did it....y must we throw it all away now? </span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;">One More Try - 911</span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;">Heart of the night, in slient skies</span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;">I watched the rain fall in the streetlight</span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;">I'm hypnotised by your sweet smile</span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;">Clear as a picture im my minds eye</span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;">I'd do anything to have you here</span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;">Do everything to dry your tears</span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;">Baby baby won't you understand</span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;">Can you forgive me for the love I let slip through my hands</span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;">[Chorus]Baby we're worth one more try (can't you see)</span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;">Deep inside my soul is dying</span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;">Only you can breathe new life</span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;">Baby we're worth one more try</span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;">I can't deny a thousand times</span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;">l left you all alone, like a lost child</span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;">I sacrifice to rectify</span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;">To heal the hurt that I still see in your eyes</span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;">I'd do anything to have you here</span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;">Do everything to dry your tears</span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;">Baby baby won't you understand</span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;">Can you forgive me for the love I let slip through my hands</span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;">[Chorus]Baby we're worth one more try (can't you see)</span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;">Deep inside my soul is dying</span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;">Only you can breathe new life</span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;">Baby we're worth one more</span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;">The carnival carousel on Freemond Street where we would meet</span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;">Those days just seem so out of reach</span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;">I hear your voice as I go to sleep, still haunting me</span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;">You hold the key to set me free, can't you see</span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;">[Chorus]Baby we're worth one more try (can't you see)</span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;">Deep inside my soul is dying</span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;">Only you can breathe new life</span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;">Baby we're worth one more try</span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;">Baby won't you listen to me</span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;">Baby we're worth one more try (can't you see)</span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;">Deep inside my soul is dying</span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;">Only you can breathe new life</span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;">Baby we're worth one more try</span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;">Only you can breathe new life</span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;">Baby we're worth one more try<br /><br />Broken...</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6999103-4760076600785758526?l=chocoholic-05.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Tianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693140454072658691noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6999103.post-41048102337383750442009-06-26T19:23:00.004+08:002009-06-26T19:34:39.628+08:00<span style="color:#33ff33;">Exactly how i felt when i had to reach dat subject...</span><br /><span style="color:#33ff33;"></span><br /><span style="color:#33ff33;">I Hate This Part - Pussy Cat Dolls</span><br /><span style="color:#33ff33;"></span><br /><span style="color:#33ff33;">We're driving slow through the snow on 5th Avenue</span><br /><span style="color:#33ff33;">And right now radio's all that we can hear</span><br /><span style="color:#33ff33;">Now we ain't talked since we left, it's so overdue</span><br /><span style="color:#33ff33;">It's cold outside but between us it's worse in here</span><br /><span style="color:#33ff33;"></span><br /><span style="color:#33ff33;">(1) The world slows down</span><br /><span style="color:#33ff33;">But my heart beats fast right now</span><br /><span style="color:#33ff33;">I know this is the part where the end starts</span><br /><span style="color:#33ff33;"></span><br /><span style="color:#33ff33;">(2) I can't take it any longer</span><br /><span style="color:#33ff33;">Thought that we were stronger</span><br /><span style="color:#33ff33;">All we do is linger</span><br /><span style="color:#33ff33;">Slipping through our fingers</span><br /><span style="color:#33ff33;">I don't wanna try now</span><br /><span style="color:#33ff33;">All that's left is goodbye to</span><br /><span style="color:#33ff33;">Find a way that I can tell you</span><br /><span style="color:#33ff33;"></span><br /><span style="color:#33ff33;">(3) I hate this part right here(x2)</span><br /><span style="color:#33ff33;">I just can't take your tears</span><br /><span style="color:#33ff33;">I hate this part right here</span><br /><span style="color:#33ff33;"></span><br /><span style="color:#33ff33;">Everyday, 7 takes of the same old scene</span><br /><span style="color:#33ff33;">Seems we're bound by the laws of the same routine</span><br /><span style="color:#33ff33;">Gotta talk to you now fore we go to sleep</span><br /><span style="color:#33ff33;">But will we sleep once I tell you what's hurting me</span><br /><span style="color:#33ff33;"></span><br /><span style="color:#33ff33;">(Repeat 1 2 3)</span><br /><span style="color:#33ff33;"></span><br /><span style="color:#33ff33;">I know you'll ask me to hold on</span><br /><span style="color:#33ff33;">And carry on like nothing's wrong</span><br /><span style="color:#33ff33;">But there is no more time for lies</span><br /><span style="color:#33ff33;">Cause I see sunset in your eyes</span><br /><span style="color:#33ff33;"></span><br /><span style="color:#33ff33;">(Repeat 2)</span><br /><span style="color:#33ff33;"></span><br /><span style="color:#33ff33;">But I gotta do it,I gotta do it (x2)</span><br /><span style="color:#33ff33;">I hate this part</span><br /><span style="color:#33ff33;">I gotta do it (x3)</span><br /><span style="color:#33ff33;">Oh I hate this part right here (x2)</span><br /><span style="color:#33ff33;"></span><br /><span style="color:#33ff33;">And I just can't take these tears</span><br /><span style="color:#33ff33;">I hate this part right here</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6999103-4104810233738375044?l=chocoholic-05.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Tianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693140454072658691noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6999103.post-30327823551218398832009-06-23T21:44:00.003+08:002009-06-23T22:07:41.718+08:00<span style="color:#ff99ff;">I suppose cutting is a better option than drinking...it's less expensive...doesnt gif you a hangover and the pain last only as long as u allow it to....after all the pain will numb....</span><br /><span style="color:#ff99ff;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ff99ff;">hmm....after tryin to tie down my emotions for so long...it seems like yest all hell broke loose....de smses...the times...the moments...the tots....everythin came runnin back into my head...where did i go wrong? what have i done or not do dat things had to turn out this way? </span><br /><span style="color:#ff99ff;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ff99ff;">Each time someone gets rejected, they fear and they stop doing wat they used to....i have slowly noticed that with time...i gif lesser and lesser...i guess it's not dat i forget how to love...jus scared to love agn...</span><br /><span style="color:#ff99ff;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ff99ff;">Dunno y i feel as if i cant imagine myself with someone else anymore....but noe wat??? screw shit....if i cant jus destroy my own emotions den i'll tear myself down...</span><br /><span style="color:#ff99ff;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ff99ff;">Wat i need is not a man...so quit tryin...cus i dun wanna noe...</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6999103-3032782355121839883?l=chocoholic-05.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Tianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693140454072658691noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6999103.post-86341475980504375072009-06-02T22:58:00.002+08:002009-06-02T23:07:14.721+08:00<span style="color:#cc6600;">i enjoyed sun more than i expected....got to see my baby gal desite gettin scratches in return...had a hard time lookin for our dinner place but finally dinner was gd...had an open conversation with her...the best thing was the conversation made me feel happy...i could speak freely what flashes thru my mind and smile abt it cus it's de happy times...but that's just me...i'd choose to keep happy memories to look back on n smile abt it...though we touched on a topic that wasnt anythin to be happy abt....we still managed to pull it off and let it pass....=) </span><br /><span style="color:#cc6600;"></span><br /><span style="color:#cc6600;">Don't worry...i will do all it takes to trash everythin i still feel inside for you...</span><br /><span style="color:#cc6600;"></span><br /><span style="color:#cc6600;">Yest was Win win n Winky's bday....they're a year older now...but still in my eyes they are jus notti little kids....My notti little kids that is.....</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6999103-8634147598050437507?l=chocoholic-05.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Tianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693140454072658691noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6999103.post-91503936940227041652009-05-28T20:48:00.002+08:002009-05-28T21:20:43.647+08:00<span style="color:#33ffff;">I'm tryin to recover...but it still feels kinda hollow inside....how did i let things turn out this way??? </span><br /><span style="color:#33ffff;"></span><br /><span style="color:#33ffff;">Even until today i still browse the sms we once exchanged. I do still open de doc you once made for us and the ppt frm you as a half yr anni gift. Everything still feels so fresh. Still rem how you got angry jus cus i paid for a movie ticket. And with dat 1 sms of yours it created a pathway for us. I'll forever rem dat sms cus i've really nv come across any1 else who would tell me that they're "lyin in bed, reading comics, shaking legs and trying to ignore my msg". That was absolutely cute. Of cus i also do rem how we were once teased during your prac. How i was always made to use you for demos. You made a great first impression cus u were early and dressed de most appropriately. First time i felt hrtbroken fer u was at de chalet when you cried. Wanted to comfort you but i was just a nobody. I was afraid and of cus shy when i was tickling your hand for a respond but i must really thankyou for stopping me frm buyin a drink dat nite. It was for me an encouragement n with dat i got to hold u for the first time. We talked crap and warned each other of our que dians. Gave each other another chance to walk out on each other but nope, we lasted 20mths. We rented our first subaru and played thru the nights. Waiting for you to close shop nv was boring, in fact i enjoyed it so much. We travelled to Redang and you actually snorkelled!!!! =) Of cus with all the good times came the bad. We quarrelled and had our fair share of tears but dat only goes to show how much you meant to me that i was willing to lose my tears. The greatest surprise i got from our whole journey? Our baby girl. I still rem de first nite u had to keep her in de laundry area, you already was so attached that you cried and sms me abt how you bu she de leaving her there alone dat you stayed and played a little longer. You were so worried that she'll dislike you for treating her like that but look what knd of bond you share wif her now? I know she loves you and will love you for as long as she lives. And im glad she's dere to love you cus i'm not supposed to love you anymore. We may no longer be together but i still hope i can be her daddy. I mean after all "real" parents are not changable.</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6999103-9150393694022704165?l=chocoholic-05.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Tianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693140454072658691noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6999103.post-55460915481350605462008-09-11T19:16:00.002+08:002008-09-11T19:23:08.075+08:00I hate my temper....i really do....been tryin not to lose it but dunno y recently it's comin back agn...n it seems like it's gettin worse than before...i throwed my temper at the whole world and even threw my fone in the car against the window...hai...i really hate myself...the only thing stopping me from gettin rid of a bastard like me from this world is the fact that if i killed myself...my family wun benefit cus then they wun be able to claim any insurance money...<br /><br />My life was a mistake from the start...i was a fucked up child who only created trouble for my family...spent my Mama's fortune on feeding me till i'm so fat and ugly....had the worst temper out of all the siblings....put ppl's life to a halt by intruding into their lives which cause them to be unable to find a proper bf...make mama angry cus of my stupid temper....i'm jus a screwed up person....may god pls let me die at work tml...i'll be grateful....<br /><br />Sorry to the world and ppl i gave trouble too...i still love you all...even my doggies....but i dun deserve life wif such a temper...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6999103-5546091548135060546?l=chocoholic-05.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Tianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693140454072658691noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6999103.post-11459240270272032582008-08-17T21:00:00.004+08:002008-08-17T21:07:24.871+08:00<span style="color:#ffff33;">y is lil winky always makin her mummy angry? hai...i really wish to help ease of beary's fan nao...but i feel so lan...even when i'm arnd winky still nv fails to make her mummy angry which in turn makes her mommy feel so fan den attitude me...jus wish winky will grow up n be dong shi soon...</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6999103-1145924027027203258?l=chocoholic-05.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Tianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693140454072658691noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6999103.post-9475848709017051892008-07-24T21:37:00.002+08:002008-07-24T22:01:34.764+08:00ok...work is flowing in...did my panel schedule this week of cus wif de help of my mentor...it's only de beginning...n i feel cheated....my mentor is moving out to proj by next wk le...=( no 1 to help me soon....=( anyway i gonne go watch my show...so won't blog much...=) happy bday agn to Chev...it was her bday yest...n to her doggy today...hahaha...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6999103-947584870901705189?l=chocoholic-05.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Tianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693140454072658691noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6999103.post-58860446822557618042008-06-30T18:06:00.002+08:002008-06-30T18:15:36.766+08:00<span style="color:#ff0000;">went for this shipyard safety course today at Boon Lay way ntuc learning hub...de stupid tainer dunno is blind or wat...commented dat de class had no gals when i was in de class la...den nvm...also duno he is purposely or wat...when he called names to go up collect passes for de exam..he actually slapped de back of my thigh jus under my ass la....guys ar such asses...</span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;">den after de class Richard walked ahead of Shengzhi n myself to de bus stop....by de time i got to de bus stop...Richard was already face to face wif this orange shirt malay guy...i overhead their conversation of which i believe de malay guy bumped rite int0 Richard at de bus stop...den Richard was tryin to ask like y he had to bump into him n all...de next thing i knew...the malay guy asked Richard for $20 while staring as if daring Richard not to give it to him...den i chanced upon Richards bus arriving n told him to leave...as Richard was boarding the bus...de malay guy followed closely n de moment Richard took de first step up de bus...de malay guy threw a punch at Richard's face...but Richard jus tried to defend himself n carried on....den de malay guy approached Shangzhi n said dat Richard was blockin him n so he should be paid de $20...n so since he din get it he said Richard deserved de punch....wat an arse...</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6999103-5886044682255761804?l=chocoholic-05.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Tianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693140454072658691noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6999103.post-80293729149126087472008-06-29T22:17:00.002+08:002008-06-29T22:40:24.052+08:00i jus had a great wkend....first was to witness de naming ceremony for Ensco 8500 a.k.a B286....at de ceremony i met my sponsor who is de wife of KOM's chairman as well as CEO Mr Choo...we chatted n she introduced me to her husband as well as Ms Sarah Seah from Keppel corp i think....high status ppl wif great plans to infuse hip hop dance wif traditional lion dance for future Christianing ceremony....<br /><br />after all dat hard work...i went to town to meet my dearest best fwen to celebrate her bday in advance...went to sing K at cine wif bday gal...mummy Soo Sing...daddy Jocelyn...n Ai mei....Sing surprised Ade wif a fake cupcake for bday cake n later had de staff send in the actual Swensen's cake dat really put a shocked expression unto Ade's face...hahaha...n after a tired day...my beary stayed over...=)<br /><br />n so my happy wkend continued on to Sun...beary n i went SPCA...den she pei me to tour Boon Lay to find the safety shop whereby de service sucked like crap...hahaha...but things became better when we managed to get her camera turned non camera fone...lol...very slim n cheap i must say....it looks really stylish la...she's 1 lucky gal to get such nice fones...=X den went to find de ntuc learning hub crap...so hard to find but she found it...den went hm watch Kung Fu Panda....so hilarious...cute...funny n fun...<br /><br />although dere were some hiccups...but de wkend was really great...i enjoyed it loads but....mon blues is comin...hahaha...k la...i had better stop here b4 some1 starts naggin...which she is alrdy doin so...=X hahaha....<br /><br />Polar bear a.k.a Sugar Mommy: Thanks alot for de wonderful wkend silly bear!!!! =D<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6999103-8029372914912608747?l=chocoholic-05.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Tianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693140454072658691noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6999103.post-73508667565809818582008-06-27T22:28:00.002+08:002008-06-27T22:40:14.195+08:00<span style="color:#ffcccc;">i gave my di yi ci away to my Sugar Mommy today....my di yi ci dining at Essential Brew in Holland V dat is...hahaha....de food dere is really good...an average price for such a place n ambience...nice...=) but hai...dat gal is a workaholic sia....n de fact dat i'm de sticky sort jus makes things worse...oh well...i this big fat humpty dumpty had a great fall today at work...now i finally noe wat the safety ppe gears ar for...it really protected my dumb head from the great impact i had wif the metal surface la....dat's jus how distracted i can get when my mind jus wanders...but it's ok...i'm safe...</span><br /><span style="color:#ffcccc;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ffcccc;">my mentor put my aeroplane again today....2 days le...she ar...really mc queen wif her best fren de leh...den make me so bored at work cus no class den dun need go on board...so funny la...i got class only they call me go onboard...no class only den dun need le...actually this morn got class...but i sign attendance den Ramu called to ask me go onboard cos GMO goin to see...den after goin onboard i was really vr tired la...i went into class n sit dwn...almost immediately i fell aslp lor...hahaha....den my fren was practicin his left handwritin n so he wrote...."skye is sleeping"...so nice of him sia...idiot...hahaha....den today i draw another set of uni for tml's Christianing ceremony of B286 Ensco 8500....this hanging platform feels much less safer than B280 Mearsk Developer, the first ever semi christianing i helped out for a week ago...this hangin staging half got no scaffold de la...is jus the wiring...hahaha...k la...blog agn another day cus i noe my bear wans me in bed soon cus it's late....so...gd nite world...</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6999103-7350866756580981858?l=chocoholic-05.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Tianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693140454072658691noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6999103.post-41168519208655008702008-06-15T14:46:00.002+08:002008-06-15T14:50:12.182+08:00<span style="color:#ffffff;">刘畊宏 许慧欣-心动心痛</span><br /><span style="color:#000099;"></span><br /><span style="color:#000099;">宏:黑夜渗透了想念</span><br /><span style="color:#000099;">偷不走微光闪现的千种画面</span><br /><span style="color:#000099;">我背着伤痛离开</span><br /><span style="color:#000099;">孤单拖着记忆支离破碎</span><br /><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;">欣:原以为不会改变</span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;">眼泪在脸颊上干枯失去知觉</span><br /><br /><span style="color:#33ff33;">合:我的心挣脱了爱</span><br /><span style="color:#33ff33;">跟随着夕阳埋进了海洋</span><br /><br /><span style="color:#33ff33;">合:为什么相爱的人却又为爱而纷争</span><br /><span style="color:#33ff33;">现实的翅膀扰乱了原本幸福的气氛</span><br /><span style="color:#000099;">我有我的过错</span><br /><span style="color:#000099;">我有我的疑惑</span><br /><span style="color:#33ff33;">藏在面对面的折磨背后</span><br /><span style="color:#33ff33;">为什么让爱躲进乌云密布的天空</span><br /><span style="color:#33ff33;">随着风漂流在外一点一点的散落</span><br /><span style="color:#33ff33;">慢慢远离的梦</span><br /><span style="color:#33ff33;">渐渐冷却冰封</span><br /><span style="color:#33ff33;">心痛都当初相遇的心动</span><br /><br /><span style="color:#000099;">宏:慢慢远离的梦</span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;">欣:渐渐冷却冰封</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6999103-4116851920865500870?l=chocoholic-05.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Tianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693140454072658691noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6999103.post-75039417196112225582008-06-14T23:09:00.003+08:002008-06-14T23:20:44.237+08:00<span style="color:#ff0000;">haiz...my r/s has been screwin up alot recently...actually i'm really tired frm a bz day but still i haf chose to take some time here to blog...with determination...wat is tiredness??? </span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;">y do i always mess ppl's life up? y do i always screw ppl's beautiful life? y is it always me destroyin ppl when i sld be de 1 to be destroyed? AARRGGGHHHH!!!!!!!!! i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry....sorry i made u lie...made u go against ur conscience so much dat i believe u live in guilt...made u drift away from ur family...sorry for appearing in ur life at such a wrong time dat i caused so much to change w/o knowin...now i dunno if i sld wait till de day comes where u can't take it den ask me to leave...or sld i jus destroy myself now...haiz...i'm too negative n emotional to continue...i'd better sign off n go turn in le...good nite world...</span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;">to some1 hu managed to change my life...thanx for everythin...if not for ur nagging my mama n i wld still be always mad at each other...if not for u i wldnt gif my best n felt confident on stage</span> today...thanx<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6999103-7503941719611222558?l=chocoholic-05.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Tianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693140454072658691noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6999103.post-18317150224364342402008-06-06T20:44:00.002+08:002008-06-06T20:52:35.474+08:00<span style="color:#c0c0c0;">my journey home from work on de company bus wasn't very pleasant today...jus tell me...how pleasant can it get when u haf a lady sitting just beside u yawning away thruout de whole journey...de worse thing was she opened her mouth so big n din even bother to cover that i can smell her breath la...nv take mints still dare open so big...omg...den sometimes she wld tsk so loudly and also at times she was mumblin to herself...omg!!!!! weirdy!!! hahaha...</span><br /><span style="color:#c0c0c0;"></span><br /><span style="color:#c0c0c0;">my trainin was ok though...morn trainin was quite interesting..nth much on wat was supposed to be taught but alot of stories to warn us about de severity of safety and all...noon class was a mess...wif a thick stack of notes i still cldnt understand a thing de trainer was sayin...hahaha...well...i must apologise to my colleague cus i made his gf nag at question n kap his fone jus cus when he was on de line i was talkin to de rest n she heard a female's voice...hahaha...</span><br /><span style="color:#c0c0c0;"></span><br /><span style="color:#c0c0c0;">anyway my lil bear is out...hope she's enjoyin herself wif her own colleagues...can't wait to see her tml...=)</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6999103-1831715022436434240?l=chocoholic-05.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Tianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693140454072658691noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6999103.post-66994815549675042162008-06-05T21:14:00.004+08:002008-06-05T23:01:24.374+08:00<span style="color:#33ffff;">yest was Ah Fang's bday party...parties are always meant to be a happy event but yest just wasn't...de moment i went to de playground...Jie Jac told me to get Selina to bathe cus she poured coke on herself...i tot it was merely a tantrum but when i saw Selina i knew it wasn't...she conered herself and was cryin...sayin that she wanted to die...some ppl got angry hearin abt this...some wld think it's jus kid's tantrums...but to me...it hurts really deeply...how can a child that's barely even 6 be thinkin about death?? wat cld haf hurt a purely innocent kid so much that they wld tk a can tab to attempt to cut themselves??? i cldn't understand her thot but her cryin made me cry...seein her say such things jus makes me feel so hurt...i teared jus hearin her say "i dun care i dun care!!! i wan to die!!!" luckily she was able to hear me out n allow me to carry her home to bathe n den be ok to play agn...<br /><br />all that she had said and done made me really think back on the me i used to be...de suicidal tots i had...while talkin to her i realised even more that ppl sldn't be suicidal because it will not affect de 1 dat made u suicide but rather it is those that matters to u n vice versa who will be hurt n upset by the things u ar goin thru... </span><br /><p><span style="color:#33ffff;">Being me...i always TRY not to cry...though i admit now i dare to be more expressive n not always try to keep it in...in any case...although Selina's behaviour made me cry...i am thankful for the silent comfort dat silly bear provided jus by touchin my arm...wasnt a big gesture nor was it for long but it gave me comfort...thankew silly polar bear...<br /><br />-=[whuever says love isn't the greatest thing only says so because they haf frozen]=-</span></p><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6999103-6699481554967504216?l=chocoholic-05.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Tianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693140454072658691noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6999103.post-57365086404394308032008-06-04T22:32:00.001+08:002008-06-04T22:33:43.794+08:00<span style="color:#33ff33;">it's been a long day...too tired to blog anithin...jus wanna say i had a great nite yest though din manage to sleep much...n also a great mornin breakfast...though it was only cereal but cereal nv tasted any better...haha...k la...really tired...signin out...=)</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6999103-5736508640439430803?l=chocoholic-05.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Tianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693140454072658691noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6999103.post-38873814641645062682008-06-02T19:39:00.003+08:002008-06-02T19:49:02.090+08:00<span style="color:#cc33cc;">seems like ppl do grow and mature as they age dun they? it's scary how de person i once look up to is now so practical...so much so dat they sound so emotionless to me...m i very immature? stuck in de past so much i nv grow out of my childish thots? goodness...may god pls bless me to die...</span><br /><span style="color:#cc33cc;"></span><br /><span style="color:#cc33cc;">06: u've changed...n i'm gettin scared...jus prayin hard ur harsh words would not cause me to put up another wall of defence that wld cause me to be an icebox...</span><br /><br /><span style="color:#ffffff;">Polar bear: silly bear...it's ok to haf pms-es....jus speak to me n make me understand ok? maybe i haf been takin all de wrong steps but now i noe in order for me to walk right in ur life...de only person hu can lead me right is u urself...sry to assume that i had to look back into de past in order to learn...wo zhi dao cuo le...sry ah...</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6999103-3887381464164506268?l=chocoholic-05.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Tianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693140454072658691noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6999103.post-37629968737830810072008-06-01T21:42:00.003+08:002008-06-01T22:28:44.844+08:00<span style="color:#ffff00;">My days haf not been great since 2 days ago....wif de help of some1...it did improve until i asked a selfish question that got me entagled in a mix of fury...quarrel...sadness and more importantly got me into thinkin...1 selfish question which put my r/s on de line...dumb? not really....at least it made some1 speak up...to daringly call me selfish....n also made de person realise i m de bastard n jerk that i haf always said i was...</span><br /><span style="color:#ffff00;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ffff00;">well...de first thing that actually upsetted me was abt my sis...cus i can totally understand how it feels to lose de 1 u really love and truely noe that it's not jus a r/s that is lost but happiness that can only be found in that r/s...i admit i sldnt be angry at him for not givin my sis another chance...but i merely wanted de best for my sis...den agn...ppl change...aint it?? even if he gives her another chance...he prolly wldnt be hu he was before...still...i believe that at least n until we haf tried...we sldnt assume n gif up jus yet...sorry mei i can't do anythin to help u get back ur happiness...but if u sld need some1 to talk to or be dere...i really wish u wld look me up...wo bi jing hai shi ni jie...</span><br /><span style="color:#ffff00;"></span><br /><span style="color:#3333ff;">06: Everytime i encounter a setback in my r/s...i think of u...haf u not taught me all i needed to learn? i always tot that wat u haf given me was enough to bring me thru de rest of my life...but each time i encounter a problem...i ask myself wat it is u haf forgotten to teach me...or was it me hu hasn't learnt....i dunno...i miss u...n wish u wld come back n assist my life</span><br /><span style="color:#ffff00;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ffff00;">Ger: hey...i noe u'll chance upon this post 1 day...but when exactly i really won't noe...in any case..jus thot u sld noe how much i wish to call n talk to u...but i noe now is de common test period for u n thus i sldnt be disturbing...as this post tells u....i'm facing a setback in my life...actually not just my own r/s...but my sis's too...in any case i really hope we'd meet soon...den i shall share wif u more...</span><br /><span style="color:#ffff00;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ffffff;">Polar Bear: hey dere silly bear...i noe it's my mistake to ask about him...i really din try to do it at de expense of ya feelings...i was thinkin n came to this thot whereby i found was justifiable as to y i asked u de question...i know rite from de start i was nv gonna be ur perfect 1...but at de end of our r/s...i din wan u to hate me...n so i thot dat if i cld find out y u hated him so much...den i cld prevent it frm happenin so that when our own r/s came to a halt...we cld still be frens n u wun hate me...i dunno how to put it thru to u but...it wld really help if u cld open up n explain things to me rather than always pushin it aside until my inquisitive side makes u explode...i did warn u i was a curious idiot...no doubt i love to talk but i think it wld be nice if sometimes u cld do de serious talk once in a while...share abit of wat u were like when u were young...tell me more abt how u wld like to be treated to feel pampered...all in a nice way n not wait till we quarrel den shout out wat it is u dislike so much abt me...it wld also help if wld share ur thots about things wif me...like wat defines a r/s...wat is it that makes a r/s...wat u wan out of a r/s...de things u haf been thru in ya life...pls dun be afraid to share thots wif me...after all u haf already seen all my weaker sides...on top of dat...u ar de only 1 i haf confessed to to having pms...n dun always belittle urself...u haf really been a great gf to me...despite ur bad attitude...let's jus say everybody has their strength n weaknesses...every r/s has it's pros n cons...as long as u haf tried...jus explain it to me...i can't expect u to be my perfect bear...but at de very least in order for me to also accomodate u...u got to speak to me in order for me to find it justifiable...dun be upset anymore k...i hope this tides over SOON...</span><br /><span style="color:#ffffff;"></span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6999103-3762996873783081007?l=chocoholic-05.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Tianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693140454072658691noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6999103.post-69398605127240405712008-04-12T18:55:00.002+08:002008-04-12T18:59:04.221+08:00<span style="color:#33ff33;">to all who still bother to read this blog of mine...my apologies that i have stopped n returned only after really long intervals...pls be kind to note that i have been really really busy n so been online less...therefore explainin y i dun blog...in any case..i have lost the expressive side of me in terms of words and thus find it increasingly difficult by the days or maybe by the years since i feel myself ageing...haha...in any case...i will try to post agn soon...</span><br /><span style="color:#33ff33;"></span><br /><span style="color:#33ff33;">love!</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6999103-6939860512724040571?l=chocoholic-05.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Tianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693140454072658691noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6999103.post-11115514868486732008-02-07T21:23:00.000+08:002008-02-07T21:36:19.832+08:00<span style="color:#000099;">Aright...n so it's de first day of CNY...went to pei Ms Lim before going to fetch my mum fo our usual late nite Chinatown shopping. I think this will probably be the last year that we would be going to Chinatown for this late nite shopping cus they are closing earlier each year with no cheap stuff left to buy...n then the usual continues...slp den mornin bai nian to parents...den went Mama hse for the usual yearly whole family gathering...played some mahjong den was out to granny's place for mom's side gathering....after dat was back home to rest den now at Lil India cus just send de kids back....</span><br /><span style="color:#000099;"></span><br /><span style="color:#000099;">My baby has left for M'sia since this morn at about 6plus...it's been barely 24hrs but ...i miss her alrdy...feels kinda empty with her bein so far away from me...okok...i noe it's only a neighbouring country but...hmm...oh well...hope she's doin better with the little doggy there..=)</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6999103-1111551486848673?l=chocoholic-05.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Tianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693140454072658691noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6999103.post-21860258958771245042008-01-28T09:36:00.000+08:002008-01-28T20:58:55.584+08:00<span style="color:#cc33cc;">Yest was Funka 2008 finals and though the venue was lousy...sound system was crap...but the dance was still as explosive!!! Let me name you the those in the top 10 as much as i can remember. In no particular order</span><br /><ul><li><span style="color:#3366ff;">Trademark (1st)</span></li><li><span style="color:#cc33cc;">ED Vance (2nd &amp; best choreography)</span></li><li><span style="color:#ff6600;">Soul Out Crew a.k.a S.O.C (3rd with Best male Terence)</span></li><li><span style="color:#ff0000;">Last Minute Crew a.k.a LMC</span></li><li><span style="color:#cc33cc;">FBeats (Best female to Allegra)</span></li><li><span style="color:#993300;">Hoopside</span></li><li><span style="color:#ffffff;">Soul Jazz</span></li><li><span style="color:#999999;">WickedTempo</span></li><li><span style="color:#cc33cc;">Static Flow</span></li><li><span style="color:#cc33cc;">Matriarcx</span></li></ul><p><span style="color:#cc33cc;">Congrats to all and really great job! </span></p><p><span style="color:#cc33cc;">oh my...i'm so tired...still feelin a lil shagged out from my first time 24hrs of work...YES!!! 24 HRS!!! since sat i work like 8am-5pm at my fnb line...n den 6pm-9am running around setting up and tearing down deco. Not bad a job i must say...jus the nite job itself has earned me abt $110. Great! i shall work more n slp less next time...hahaha....k la...nth much to blog abt...jus really happy apart from Championship, NRA has clinched all the other awards! =D</span></p><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6999103-2186025895877124504?l=chocoholic-05.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Tianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693140454072658691noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6999103.post-16648858691956419922008-01-23T10:36:00.000+08:002008-01-23T10:45:11.351+08:00My funka experience has come to an end...may be short but i'm already lookin back on it and missing those times...tiring days...pissed-off nites...but sweet memories...i thought back on it jus 2 days ago...and realised that funka held an even more significant day for me now...not jus becus it was funka...but because this very impt dance comp fell on such a significant day...<br /><br />I knew her thru dance...taught her to dance...saw her thru her comp...and on funka...i gave my best not just for the comp...but also to her...and now i wonder if she knew it was...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6999103-1664885869195641992?l=chocoholic-05.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Tianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693140454072658691noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6999103.post-25632899045730105302008-01-02T09:32:00.000+08:002008-01-02T09:34:55.850+08:00<span style="color:#ff6600;">Yay!!!!! i finally found my password...now finally can blog!!!!! hahahaha....when i have time i shall FINALLY go change my template...in any case..it's de new year...year 2008...wow!!! time flies...graduatin soon...really soon...hmmm...for now...life is too packed..takin things 1 step at a time...hope things works out..=)</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6999103-2563289904573010530?l=chocoholic-05.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Tianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693140454072658691noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6999103.post-70874921072048370092007-05-11T09:13:00.001+08:002007-05-11T09:13:29.432+08:00<span style="color:#ff99ff;">weehee...now in class but class hasnt been goin on cus no air-con...wat a reason to not haf class rite...hahahaha....so i'm here bloggin...anyway de 19May perofrmance is back on for Bridging the Gap....n so tml got prac...workin on Mother's Day....how crap can it get...but nvm...alrdy brot Mama n my Mum to eat yest...some crab bee hoon....it's nice and yummy...but ex...lol!!! it's ok...as long as it made them happy...yea...though sometimes i dun seem close to my parents i still love them alot...who doesn't....i may not spend much time wif dem...and Mama always looked after me...but they ar still my parents n i try hard to understand them sometimes...really...to all de mum's...Happy Mother's Day....especially to Mama n Mummy...</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6999103-7087492107204837009?l=chocoholic-05.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Tianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693140454072658691noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6999103.post-29050639246196130252007-05-03T19:38:00.000+08:002007-05-03T19:41:08.827+08:00<span style="color:#ccccff;">after so long i no longer noe how to start bloggin agn...my post becomes random...n i'm bad wif words now...i'm changin...good or bad i dunno but i m changin...heart is feelin heavy...gettin tired of things...i'm slowing down...mayb 1 day i'll really be so cold till everythin is frozen...maybe....jus maybe...</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6999103-2905063924619613025?l=chocoholic-05.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Tianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693140454072658691noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6999103.post-12883774573109092942007-03-24T22:59:00.000+08:002007-03-24T23:00:39.879+08:00the beautiful lies you layed before me...<br />kept me as blind as my eyes could see....<br />the bed of roses hid thorns within...<br />lettin me fall right in between....<br />the sky of rainbow the sun at sea...<br />was wat i saw you brought to me...<br />but time has passed and things have changed...<br />with all that happened, nothing remained....<br />you took away what you have gave....<br />letting me fall alone to my grave....<br /><br />ps: pls do not steal my poem....thanx<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6999103-1288377457310909294?l=chocoholic-05.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Tianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693140454072658691noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6999103.post-1165249096649688002006-12-05T00:05:00.000+08:002006-12-05T00:18:16.713+08:00<span style="color:#ffcc33;">finally gonna update again...lets see...main events dat happened so far...Danzation 2006 was a success...all de hard work finally paid off fer de 2 nitez...even mr n ms annie tan, my sec sch teachers, attended de show...even Dad!!!!! =) little monster, Selina, was dere too...-big grins- oh ya...den recently also got a job at Altivo...nice romantic place to be at nite...best thing? can get to sit cable car fer free...and de ice cream fer staff is so cheap...YUMMY! =x yup...so dance class has started...n common test is jus next week...so sian...hope to study harder n see improvements in my marks soon....so...ciaoz...=)</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6999103-116524909664968800?l=chocoholic-05.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Tianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693140454072658691noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6999103.post-1161525955615545842006-10-22T22:02:00.000+08:002006-10-22T22:05:55.626+08:00<span style="color:#ccccff;">hai...sianz...took me some time to finally be able to find some1 to gimme his shift to work but yet cld only do halfway cus i din wan to miss full run at 5pm...though i only got 1 item but i really din wanna miss it...yet after sittin fer 3 hrs i found out dat de item got cancelled...sianz to da max lor...sorta regret workin on sun cus it's like sun is supposed to be my date wif lil Selina where i wld bring her to find my mum whereva she wld be werkin at...too late! (sry mum...find u next wkend instead!) yup...nth much to update actually...or rather too lazy ba...hahaha....oh well..shall keep post short den...buaiz!</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6999103-116152595561554584?l=chocoholic-05.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Tianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693140454072658691noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6999103.post-1159284732040631772006-09-26T23:10:00.000+08:002006-09-26T23:32:12.066+08:00<span style="color:#33ff33;">some1 once told me dis story...</span><br /><span style="color:#33ff33;"></span><br /><span style="color:#33ff33;">there's dis poor gal hu owned a lil puppy....1 day her lil pup ran outta de hse...n when she went out to search fer it...she found de pup starin longinly at dis big penthouse 2 streets away frm her...she understood dat de dog loved de hse n longs to stay in it but she noes it is smth she cld nv do fer de dog...as days passed..she realised de dog wasn't as cheerful as before...dat was when she decided that she wld keep de dog fer another 2 wks before sending it to the penthouse she found de dog at...initially she chose to jus gif all she cld to de dog during this 2 wks n on de day jus let the dog go....dis way she cld make de dog happy...but wldn't any1 think dat dogs haf feelings too? even w/o words they can feel their fate...so when she pondered over it again...she thot maybe she sld talk to the lil pup and let the pup understand why she chose to let it go...not because she din love the lil pup...but becus she knew that the pup wld be betta off living in the penthouse....n also mayb den de dog wld also learn to make full use of this 2 wks to love de gal n protect her while it can...so dat finally when the dog has to leave...de pup will be really happy...</span><br /><span style="color:#33ff33;"></span><br /><span style="color:#33ff33;">do u actually understand de storyline? lol...cus dis is a story told to me...so may not be intepreted as exact...lol!!! if u were de owner...wld u choose to not tell de pup cus u think by actin happy de pup wldn't noe? or wld u share wif the lil pup so dat the pup can love u wif all its hrt fer de last 2 wks? =)</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6999103-115928473204063177?l=chocoholic-05.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Tianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693140454072658691noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6999103.post-1157483796878087052006-09-06T03:09:00.000+08:002006-09-06T03:16:37.006+08:00<span style="color:#cc66cc;">Today they talked about this woman who is married with 2 children.The couple were in their 40s...One day the husband came home and told his wife he wanted a divorce because he fell in love with a china girl...The wife looked up that china girl and realise that she is very young, as young as her children. about 18 to 20 yrs old. That china girl gave alot of bull shit saying, "u think i am like any other china girls who are just searching for a better life? I wanted to stop thinking about him and i wanted to leave him but i have already fallen for him. I really love him alot." -total crap- (She jus wan his $ la)But anyway, Lanny(wife) didn't grant her husband the divorce initially...Her husband wanted to tell their 2 daughters about the situation but Lanny felt that he shouldn't make them more disappointed.But at last, Lanny agreed. The next day he came and told them that he had fallen for another girl and he also begged Lanny to divorce him.He said he want to marry the china girl in china, but in order for the china girl to agree that they get married, she want him to divorce the wife first. He wanted that china girl to be his wife and Lanny to be the mistress.The next day, while Lanny was practising her ballroom dancing, he came to look for her with the Divorce letter.He begged again and left.She finally thought about it and signed the paper.She went for counselling and she realise that getting a divorce isn't the end of her life. In fact, she joined many ballroom dancing competition and she even took home a champion for some competition. </span><br /><span style="color:#cc66cc;"></span><br /><span style="color:#cc66cc;">this is a story i took frm my sis's blog...a story dat was broadcasted on tv...n as my dad commented: "sometimes it's a blessing in disguise. It isnt always bad."</span><br /><span style="color:#cc66cc;"></span><br /><span style="color:#cc66cc;">And dis is wat my sis thot...</span><br /><span style="color:#cc66cc;">After watching this show, i kept tearing... I saw her courage...Having a r/s is like a marriage, just that marriage is a more committed and serious r/s.Well... i guess she is my inspiration.She was willing to sacrifice her happiness and marriage so that her husband will be happy. I think breaking up is not the end of me.If my partner is struggling to find a happier life with me or if he isn't happy being with me then there is no point in me trying to hold on anymore.Just let him go to find someone he'll be happier with.Lanny said," Sometimes u got to give up some things for the ones you love because u want them to be happy." I think when fate is up, that's when u gotta let go.</span><br /><span style="color:#cc66cc;"></span><br /><span style="color:#cc66cc;">jus thot i'd like to share dis story cus i find it really very inspirin...it opened up my sis's mind n i hope it works fer de rest too...=)</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6999103-115748379687808705?l=chocoholic-05.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Tianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693140454072658691noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6999103.post-1157391097301129772006-09-05T01:17:00.000+08:002006-09-05T01:31:37.316+08:00<span style="color:#006600;">feelin vr tired...cus i spoilt all my sleeping time...thanx to attachment i got to wake up at 5 every morn jus to take de bus to TUAS!!!!! =X oh well...my new workin life n environment...dun believe i got stuck to doin wat i most hated to do...tribon a.k.a ship drawing...attachment jus cant get any worse...but oh well...managed to learn a few stuff...only a wk has passed n my mates ar countin dwn another 5 wks more to bid de bangladeshi life gdbye...lol!!! loads of farni things happened like Adrian's Sunder n Mu Ku ShaMen....lol!!! ask if u dun understand la...too lor soh to be typed here...dance is quite ok fer me...cus i only got like 3 items? so still can handle...but de others....gd luck! haha...can tell they're all gettin pretty stressed up but i believe it'll all pay off within those 2 days...=) heard loads of gory stories today...abt accidents...in yards n all..i tot de gross stuff wld end dere...but guess not...i saw Ivan's fall...heart-stopping...scary....hope his nose feels at least a lil betta now...k la...gettin tired...5am tml...nitez ppl...i miss de world...i miss my world....</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6999103-115739109730112977?l=chocoholic-05.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Tianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693140454072658691noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6999103.post-1156396249124582752006-08-24T12:55:00.000+08:002006-08-24T13:10:49.153+08:00<span style="color:#ccccff;">toked to Evon a.k.a my qing ren last nite...really missed de times where she always covered all my wrong doings at work last time...n also when we worked mornin shift together...we wld take turns to buy ai xin zhao can fer each other...back den i felt so loved n protected...she was always dere fer me...last time she wld scold me fer my wrong doings n all...sometimes fer my stupidity...but she has come to terms wif it...n finally learned de special quality i found only in Ade...i hope 1 day i'd be able to buy dat bro of mine breakfast agn...=) oh...n did i mention she's so adorably cute...keeps callin me darl n love...lol...i'm really glad to haf her n also to noe dat i come jus after her gf...like in terms of care n love n protection n all....=)</span><br /><span style="color:#ccccff;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ccccff;">last paper is tml...dunno how i'd do...screwed up de last paper le...dun wish to screw tml's 1 too...so i've been studyin....hard to concentrate havin to handle myself emotionally but it's a start that i've been tryin...n so after exams will be attchment n dance...hopefully after everyday of work i'd still be able to dance...i believe i will ba...in fact i can't wait to get back to it...been a long time...recently studyin i only got time to run de steps in my mind...hopefully my stamina n all doesnt detoriarate (howeva u spell it)....k la...go back to studyin le...update soon...i think...i hope...=)</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6999103-115639624912458275?l=chocoholic-05.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Tianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693140454072658691noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6999103.post-1155191042560443132006-08-10T14:19:00.000+08:002006-08-10T14:24:02.586+08:00<span style="color:#cc66cc;">the L word totally rawks...lol...it's a show every1 sld watch!!!! no...i'm jus kiddin....do not look up on dis show pls..wahaha....sian...now supposed to haf test de...but com brkdwn so mine will start at 3 wif de next class....so wat do i do now? search up on TLW!!!!! yay!!!!!!! kkk...shant crap le la...haiyo...haven been updatin cus jus no mood...or rather it's like too many things happen den vr lazy to type out...tonite still got elva prac...yay! dance dance dance...now my life packed until i hardly ever get to see my parents and all...but luckily got to see them de past 2 days...cus of special occassion...yup...k la...lazy to blog le...go watch show le..haha...buaiz!</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6999103-115519104256044313?l=chocoholic-05.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Tianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693140454072658691noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6999103.post-1151426444032129522006-06-28T00:17:00.000+08:002006-06-28T00:40:44.056+08:00<span style="color:#33ff33;">attended snw today...din really had class cus air-con not on...so jus did basic isolation...den went fer Power Jazz class...felt sick frm it...head hurts n all...but but but...some1 was jus so sexy...omg...even Jess agrees dat de some1 danced damn sexily today la...den when Ann danced beside her...whoah! hot!!!! =X oh...we danced buttons...carried on frm last wk de...not easy...so much turnin of head till my head hurts now...after class we had Don's prac...super tired but still pushed on...right side of my tummy hurts...dunno y too...but nvm...went hm wif small Anne n Luping...we talked abt such farni stuff on de bus...thinkin bout it now still makes me wanna laff....Anne damn cute la...lol!!! kk...shan't say here...vr tired le..go zzz liao...nitez!</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6999103-115142644403212952?l=chocoholic-05.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Tianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693140454072658691noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6999103.post-1150468933973004312006-06-16T22:33:00.000+08:002006-06-16T22:42:13.996+08:00<span style="color:#c0c0c0;">saw mom n dad when i got back from work today..really interesting...i hardly ever get to see them...work was ok...still stressed as ever to do counter wif Jess but...ok la..she nv try to stress me out more...today quite happy cus got to work wif Xinyi...long time nv work wif her le...heh! den came back frm work play wm...=) but dats of cus after i completed my project...wahaha...bor pian...i sian to da max la pls...3 consecutive days at home doin nothin alone...so resort to wm everyday...left my char dere den tried to slp my lonliness away...haha...so i guess tonite dunnit slp le...woke up actually to my dad's call..he recieved de letter frm sch...bout my attendance...super sian diao..but oh well...next half of de sem really must study hard n all le...else Skye foreva useless...eh wait...i m..lol!!!</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6999103-115046893397300431?l=chocoholic-05.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Tianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693140454072658691noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6999103.post-1150117081127429532006-06-12T20:42:00.000+08:002006-06-12T20:58:01.140+08:00<span style="color:#cc33cc;">-sniffs- mmm....finally i got to bathe wif warm water...smellin all fresh now..jus got back frm NRA Dance Camp 2006...this yr's camp is really very tirin...last yr was only a 1 min choreo...this yr x2...drastic difference in the objective of the camp lead to this shagged out me...but nevertheless it was still fun...food was not bad...a few screw ups here n dere but glad the camp comm n de seniors managed to tok things out on the 2nd day n it made things run much more smoothly...de showcase was really interestingly fun...i feel that this yr's choreo was much betta in a sense that the standard of dance being set has increased...this yr's freshies seem to be more capable of steps i nv was capable of when i was a freshie...</span><br /><span style="color:#cc33cc;"></span><br /><span style="color:#cc33cc;">to Qianx: i really dun think de camp sux...in fact i think u did an extremely great job in pullin everythin together...seriously...u did it so well dat's y this camp is still so succesful despite de short notice u had to bring it all together...despite it fallin jus after common test which means eatin into ur study time..despite all de cork ups n screw ups dat normlly wld happen...u handled it all very well...thanx for the wondeful camp mommy!!!!</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6999103-115011708112742953?l=chocoholic-05.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Tianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693140454072658691noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6999103.post-1147629489742080452006-05-15T01:47:00.000+08:002006-05-15T01:58:09.756+08:00<span style="color:#33cc00;">Mother's day...seriously got nothin much to say bout it... my mama is my mum..dats all i can say...n so to Mama...thanx alot for bein in my life n making it so wonderful...w/o u i dun think i'd ever understand if any1 ever spoke of true motherly love...=)</span><br /><span style="color:#33cc00;"></span><br /><span style="color:#33cc00;">went shoppin in evening...bot a new bag...hadta take a bus dat passes by little india to go home...im not tryna be racist but there was dese 2 indian guys dat settled themselves beside me n...somehow they stinked badly...n my fren was like desperately tryin to spray her perfume on us to rid off de smell...but guess it din work much...lol...finally when i got off de bus..i really gasped for fresh air...wahahaha....aniwaes i like my new bag!!! yay!!!!!</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6999103-114762948974208045?l=chocoholic-05.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Tianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693140454072658691noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6999103.post-1147457752336925982006-05-13T02:12:00.000+08:002006-05-13T02:15:52.346+08:00<span style="color:#333399;">today has been a very tiring day for me...dunno y too..been feelin this way for de past few days le...so...zzzz</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6999103-114745775233692598?l=chocoholic-05.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Tianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693140454072658691noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6999103.post-1146941001937280122006-05-07T02:35:00.000+08:002006-05-07T02:43:21.956+08:00<span style="color:#ff6666;">this year's NRA audition wasn't very responsive...dere jus wasn't as many ppl whu turned up compared to last year...oh well...at least it'll be easier on Ann...den she can concentrate on jus de few...den i haf been spendin my past few days slackin in de studio...oh oh..dere's dis teacher of mine whu tot me since last sem...i think he really wasted to be lecturer..he'll prolly earn super big bucks by helpin ppl cure their insomnia probs...somehow de way he speaks jus puts ppl to slp la...on thurs durin class...he talked for like 1/2 an hr...n for dat 1/2 an hr my classmates n i were all slpin lor...lol!!! end up when wake up..dunno how to do de ship drawin..wahaha!!!! kk...goin back to my water margin le...thanx to some ppl whu got me addicted to it...lol!!!! buaiz!</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6999103-114694100193728012?l=chocoholic-05.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Tianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693140454072658691noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6999103.post-1146496987151885642006-05-01T23:11:00.000+08:002006-05-01T23:23:07.166+08:00<span style="color:#ffff00;">did lots of shoppin today...bot new Adidas shoe when out wif mama dis morn...den wenta Orchard in de noon...bot new JJJS earrings...=D happy!!!! lunched wif double J...den walked arnd...nth much happened though...but oh ya...while waitin for Jess to knock off...Joyce n i were like walkin arnd...n guess hu we saw...black angel crew choreographer...yup...i think dats abt today ba...oh shit..i 4 consecutive days nv do crunches le...FAT!!!! lol....ciaoz...</span><br /><span style="color:#ffff00;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ffff00;">Happy Bday Mikki....=)</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6999103-114649698715188564?l=chocoholic-05.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Tianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693140454072658691noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6999103.post-1145713365705748802006-04-22T20:59:00.000+08:002006-04-22T21:42:45.800+08:00<span style="color:#3333ff;">i tot i wld haf gd news to put up today...but unfortunately b4 i cld blog abt it...it turned to sadness...cus yest had cca fiesta...den my pants was droppin...so i went arnd to lend a belt...and some1 was kind enuff to lend it to me...despite their own pants bein loose...was so happy till it was even ok wif me when Ann said dat de performance was messy...but..things took a turn for a change...i think You already haf some1 else whom You prefer le rite? i mean actually i knew it long ago...but de person b4 n now is 2 diff ppl isn't it? in fact it wasn't me who noticed...but after dat person told me...i tried to act ok..laffin at dat person for bein more affected by it den me...but de fact was dat it's affecting me too...hai...anyway i think dat peron has waited long enuff for You...so long as dat person can treat u betta ba...</span><br /><span style="color:#3333ff;"></span><br /><span style="color:#3333ff;">recently i noticed smth...the ppl arnd me ar startin to find their happiness....some1 in their life who wld gif their 100% love...care...and everythin else they can into makin their partner happy...yet me? i can only gif wat i can to make You happy...though i noe the only person who can really make You feel dat way is not me but some1 else...yet i still choose to try anythin i can to make u laugh...yes...laugh is the word...i can't use happy cus it's not a feelin dat i can provide You...or rather give You cus in de first place You haf already left dat place for some1 else to fill...but i hope jus bein able to make you laugh wld be gd enuff ba...at least take Your mind of certain things dat u may be thinkin abt dat You dun wish to say...hmmm....everytime i see You wif de one You like (let's call it Your some1)...it makes me wanna dissappear...cus i dunno if i even wanna see...i alrdy dun feel gd sometimes knowin i wanna do so much for You...only to see You doin it all for Your some1 instead...hhmmm....suan le ba...dis is my life...n i haf chosen to gif You wat i can though it's not much....so...i suppose i'd still do so ba...despite seein n knowin how much You n Your some1 is gettin closer now...=)</span><br /><span style="color:#3333ff;"></span><br /><span style="color:#3333ff;">ok...so lets cut de crap wif my dumb "1-way lovin sorta love life"...haha....kk..n so today's techniques class had very little ppl...but very fun...especially de supposed mood of de choreo...desperation n yearnin is de word...lol...den went for Levis semis....stand until my legs damn sour...not many impressive grps...in fact so much so dat i actually got nth much to say abt de comp...but yea...as expected...all de grps consisting of NRA members made it to de finals...except for rough cut...but they had their reasons...really valid ones so i think it's really ok...they did quite well despite so many things having to happen so last min...n so yup...we'll see how finals goes next week ba....=) Jia You to all de grps in finals...</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6999103-114571336570574880?l=chocoholic-05.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Tianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693140454072658691noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6999103.post-1145390373828308152006-04-19T03:50:00.000+08:002006-04-19T04:11:40.150+08:00<span style="color:#ff6666;">i...got too many things to say le...dunno how to start...hmmm...lately every1's been talkin bout international hip hop comp...dunno y i'm havin such low self esteem these days...dun think i haf de confidence to be up to it...yup...but still i hope Phatnoobz will go on n dat they will still join de comp...=) den...normal dance class...fri's performance..haiyo...de choreo so sexy la...dunno how i'm gonna do it...but..i'll try...Don's choreo also...got pair work de...n my partner is.....Min Min...lol!!!! aiya...dunno how to be sexy la...i...i...must tu puo!!!! eh...ok...nvm..i noe it's impossible..haha...been watchin summer snow de past few days...wahaha...hooked on it le...thanx to some1...ok..no names mentioned...oh oh...actually i realised these few weeks de choreos ar all damn sexy 1...not like last time super hip hop de...yup...</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6999103-114539037382830815?l=chocoholic-05.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Tianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693140454072658691noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6999103.post-1144603674340691662006-04-10T01:06:00.000+08:002006-04-10T01:27:54.453+08:00<span style="color:#ffcc00;">i'm scared i can't hang in there much longer...i'm happy when u're arnd...think alot more than i sld when u're not...especially when i noe 1 day you will leave..i really wish to keep u wif me 4eva...de way u promised our frenship wld be...but i noe i cannot be selfish...i will hafta let you go once you ar ready to let go of my hand...i'm sorry if along de way i fail to make u happy or if i lose myself...cus even as i try to dwell in self-denial i noe i can't hide too long frm reality...anytime u ar ready to leave...pls dun let me be de last 1 to noe...i will try to get myself prepared but sorry if i fail to let go of u gracefully....i wish upon my wishes dat all my frens can n wld be happy....apologies for my weakness...my inabilities to make each n every1 of u smile....i hope i can hold on long enough until some1 else comes to take hold of ur hand n provide u wif more than wat i can n will gif to you...in de meantime i hope dance will keep me sane enuff to walk u thru to where i can until some1 else comes to take de place i nv belonged to...=)</span><br /><span style="color:#ffcc00;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ffcc00;">i'm tryna keep my sanity in order to make u happy...but pls dun be unhappy for it's my will to do so....not by force...=)</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6999103-114460367434069166?l=chocoholic-05.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Tianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693140454072658691noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6999103.post-1144515005608292302006-04-09T00:33:00.000+08:002006-04-09T00:50:05.706+08:00<span style="color:#33ff33;">sorta toked things out a lil last nite...it jus felt weird...sorry if i upsetted You...hmm....things were a lil akward today at first...but b4 it cld get betta....i bad attitude...den make until i myself n de other person so pek chek...sorry...hai...sorry sorry sorry (x 1000000)....i noe i suck...hmmm...pissed at myself...aniwae i din attend de appreciation dinner...or rather i did but very very late when ppl all goin hm le...had some quiet moments where things did finally get better...still wanna say i'm sorry...i'm like de lousiest person on earth le la...haiya...den when every1 left...i went hm...wif Yen's papaya...stup gal...ask mi help her carry de fruit den nv take back...</span><br /><span style="color:#33ff33;"></span><br /><span style="color:#33ff33;">oh i missed techniques class today...overslept...=( cannot liddat le...must put all my energy back into dance...wah!!! tok abt dance...Don's choreo....aahhh!!!!! -shy- got ass shaking moves de lor...-screams- ahems! okok....nvm...i must TRY to learn to be sexy...heh! DUN LAFF AT ME!!!!!!!!! =( u all bi shi me...dun tok to u all le....</span><br /><span style="color:#33ff33;"></span><br /><span style="color:#33ff33;">sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry...i noe sorry nv works wonders but still...sorry....</span><br /><span style="color:#33ff33;"></span><br /><span style="color:#33ff33;">someday You will leave...but b4 it happens...i will try to make de best of wat we haf....=)</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6999103-114451500560829230?l=chocoholic-05.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Tianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693140454072658691noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6999103.post-1144259099267168172006-04-06T01:39:00.000+08:002006-04-06T01:44:59.283+08:00very lazy to blog...very tired...but i'll try...tue was a day many things happened...both at extremes of gd n bad...today was more on a happier note...less dwns compared to ups...glad abt it...wah!!! but i worried....abt wat? heh...dun tell u leh...haiya...my entries becomin very bor liao...wahaha....tired le..brain not workin le...maybe dats y...=D<br /><br />Baby J is so accessorised...=D<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6999103-114425909926716817?l=chocoholic-05.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Tianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693140454072658691noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6999103.post-1143980824365943742006-04-02T20:22:00.000+08:002006-04-02T20:27:08.023+08:00<span style="color:#999999;">so this is wat it feels like to miss some1 so badly...hmm...inability to feed de addiction is jus so painful...was it you who has changed or is it me who is makin ppl tired of my attitude...hai...sorry to Jess for havin to put up wif me jus cus i wasn't in a gd mood...dui bu qi...hai...i dun wanna be so dependent on my drug...my addiction isn't small...it's not easy to kick it...but i think u haf broken de habit...hai..not me...</span><br /><span style="color:#999999;"></span><br /><span style="color:#999999;">i miss you...</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6999103-114398082436594374?l=chocoholic-05.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Tianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693140454072658691noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6999103.post-1143830807133892702006-04-01T02:25:00.000+08:002006-04-01T02:46:47.213+08:00<span style="color:#cc33cc;">dunno wats wif me yest...wanted to be wif triple JS but yet scared to feel left out...only appeared after some1 wished really hard (i hope u really did)....but finally joined them all to watch ice age 2....triple JS + Minz n Willie....cute show..."no i'm not a mammoth!" enjoyed last nite alot...today had Don's class...latecomers punishment executed today...quite scary...not much steps was added today but rather Don has chosen to work on our feel....i must let go n be more...erm..."sexy?" eww...quite gross actually...Skye is jus tooo fat n ugly le....but still must try...yup...</span><br /><span style="color:#cc33cc;"></span><br /><span style="color:#cc33cc;">had lots of time to think bout things today...biggest reflection or rather my tot of de day is this...I'm only there to be ur source of entertainment...but if instead i become more of a hindrance...jus lemme noe...i'll back off...</span><br /><span style="color:#cc33cc;"></span><br /><span style="color:#cc33cc;">You got me so addicted to You...=D</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6999103-114383080713389270?l=chocoholic-05.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Tianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693140454072658691noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6999103.post-1143402982795218142006-03-27T03:37:00.000+08:002006-03-27T03:56:22.866+08:00<span style="color:#3333ff;">recently de ppl arnd me ar askin..."is it possible to like 2 ppl at 1 time..." so wat's ya stand? possible? i think...it is possible ba...but is it a sin? hmmm...to me i think it's not a sin...but a sign of insecurity...in decisiveness...undecided which to hold on to n which to let go of...it's ok to like 2 ppl at 1 time...but can ur own conscience live wif it? </span><br /><span style="color:#3333ff;"></span><br /><span style="color:#3333ff;">i know of 1 who is strugglin to let go of 1...but yet can't decide...for dat person's hrt longs for A while her mind wants B...unable to decide...for it's hard to let go of either 1....</span><br /><span style="color:#3333ff;"></span><br /><span style="color:#3333ff;">den i noe of another who went thru de ordeal of differentiating the type of love dat they haf for de 2 person...like is it classified as sisterly/brotherly love....or admiration/idolising...or plainly jus love....but wateva decision dat person made...somehow dat person din really bother abt it n continue to be stuck in likin these 2 ppl in their life...</span><br /><span style="color:#3333ff;"></span><br /><span style="color:#3333ff;">there ar ppl who make do wif their feelings for it's not smth dat can be controlled...but dere ar some who struggle wif it so badly dat they fall into depression...gettin all upset bout it...so is it rite or wrong? possible? i suppose it's very highly possible n dere really is no rite or wrong...it's just a matter of self principle...if 1 can accept it den ok...if not...it's really very xin ku de...so to those whu ar in dis situation...seriously u ar not alone...i noe of quite a number of ppl who ar in dis situation too...=)</span><br /><span style="color:#3333ff;"></span><br /><span style="color:#3333ff;">P.S: Sorry for de fact dat i always fail to make You smile....one of which would come from deep within...from Your heart...for it is dat smile....dat wld make my day much happier...</span><br /><span style="color:#3333ff;"></span><br /><span style="color:#3333ff;">thanx for makin me feel so loved n pampered...though You dun mean it in a way i wld wish to haf...but it's enuff...more than enuff...thanx...=)</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6999103-114340298279521814?l=chocoholic-05.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Tianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693140454072658691noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6999103.post-1143132640836561142006-03-24T00:49:00.000+08:002006-03-24T00:50:40.850+08:00pissed off...moodless....angry....stressed...dats how i've been feeling de whole day...even now...except for dat few hours some1 made me smile...thanx....<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6999103-114313264083656114?l=chocoholic-05.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Tianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693140454072658691noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6999103.post-1142782392166351592006-03-19T23:17:00.000+08:002006-03-19T23:33:18.583+08:00<span style="color:#ffff33;">feelin helpless....i see ppl arnd me feelin upset...troubled...confused..lost..but yet i can't even seem to help...no not even to jus sit dwn n hear them out...cus i'm feelin it too...n if i can't handle my own probs..it's hard to listen to other's....hhmmm...i'm sorry...dunno y i'm feelin so weak suddenly...=) smilez...ya! hmm...i'll seek strength to cheer ppl up once agn...</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6999103-114278239216635159?l=chocoholic-05.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Tianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693140454072658691noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6999103.post-1142615620724289132006-03-18T00:41:00.000+08:002006-03-18T01:13:40.816+08:00<span style="color:#ff0000;">went out yest wif triple JS n Willie...finally took neoprint together...gd thing for Bunny to bring to m'sia...though she prolly wun need it cus she'll be bz missin her SK...wahaha...walked dere de whole day until we hadta go our seperate ways...was damn sad to part la...cus yest nite was de last nite i'd see Bunny until she comes back which wun be until sun? anytime 1 of triple JS is not arnd...things jus dun feel de same...anyway de zouk competition started n ended really quickly yest nite...cheers to all like D.U.H for their non-stop great moves on stage performance...jus watchin them from the floor made me feel their energy level too...den to urban sleekers (3rd) for their sleekness as said in their grp name...to Outfitters (2nd) for bein so hot on stage last nite...bet the guys on de floor was droolin la...hot babes on stage!!!! whoah....n to Jj's grp for clinchin first...actually i think this comp wasn't very competitive cus the other 6 grps were of a slightly different genre..they consist mainly of bboyin rather than dance lor...yup..after de comp...dere was like a freestyle battle goin on...it wasn't official jus dat rp n np ppl ka wu...den others came to join...Joyce also popped lor...dope!!! left at abt 2 i think...den went Yuxin's hse...slp n slack until today noon...de rest of the ppl went swimmin while i hid in de hse...almost got pulled in by Von n Yen lor...idert...so farni la...they still vr gentle n kind wanna remove my hp for me first...lol..had dinner at Jalan Kayu b4 finally goin to kap for meeting...pissed off at myself for bein so super late la..shit! haiyo...k la...sign off le...</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6999103-114261562072428913?l=chocoholic-05.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Tianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693140454072658691noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6999103.post-1142356793293264272006-03-15T00:56:00.000+08:002006-03-15T01:19:53.386+08:00<span style="color:#33ff33;">today had 2 sessions of prac...1 morn 1 evening...feelin tired pls...initially in de morn was like quite pissed...lateness...slackin...felt like shit...den noon went Holland V n Chinatown...mood jus din get any betta...den evenin prac i was late...argghh!!!! disappointed in myself....i was late....LATE!!!! hai....i suck...lousy like shit...haiya...dunno la..even though prac was overall not bad...made progress...but...my mood jus seems lousy...</span><br /><span style="color:#33ff33;"></span><br /><span style="color:#33ff33;">back to bein alone? durin de outin at Holland V n Chinatown...i...isolated myself agn...cus...odd number...den i felt weird...Bunny n Jess had a common topic...de ou xiang ju...den Joyce n Willie were tokin bout n playin their lappie game...so since i xtra so i went back to zi bi...mayb...dats jus who i sld be ba...an xtra...who sld shun away frm everythin cus i can nv fit in...=)</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6999103-114235679329326427?l=chocoholic-05.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Tianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693140454072658691noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6999103.post-1142186263894244032006-03-13T00:11:00.000+08:002006-03-13T01:57:43.960+08:00<span style="color:#00cccc;">finally back from Genting...first day was basically the trip up...missed my dance mates n of cus my JJJ when on de bus...mayb it was de loneliness n emptiness i was feelin cus they weren't arnd...den reached there already late evening so nth much...but i was sick n it was on dat dey where i saw my classmates super duper caring side...they accompanied me to get med..n even after we reached de hotel to rest...they specifically went back dwn jus to buy a bottle of water for me cus i complained dat de hotel water was disgusting...despite de fact that we were approached by dis guy who asked them out to chill out earlier on...n they sorta freaked out...wahaha...n so my day ended wif lotsa care frm my classmates...thanx gals!!! =) </span><br /><span style="color:#00cccc;"></span><br /><span style="color:#00cccc;">Day 2 was trekking n abseiling...i personally prefer trekking...sorry Tingting...but i think ur chou si very farni must share...so i leak de details here k...her leg got dipped into the waterfall when tryin to cross de waters by steppin on stones...den on de way back she climbed on top of a log...cus de log was an obstruction...but..when she tried to jump off she...fell flat on her face!!!! den after de trek she wenta sit on this swing...it was sorta higher den normal frm flat surface...so it was hard to jump off de swing...den Tingting ge kiang (act smart) try to jus jump off...end up she landed flat on her face agn...this time wif part of her already wet shoes in de pond...lol!!!! den when she tried to get up....de swing almost knocked her head la...den Fengxia also...during de trek de guy b4 her was like shouting " careful in front de obstructing tree has thorns"... but after she tied her shoelace she totally 4get....den wenta bang head first into the thorned tree...luckily she was wearing a cap...hilarious...oh oh oh...den there was dis monkey dat de hotel sorta kept...it's really cute n adorable...only Tock Seng was daring enuff to touch de monkey first..later den was me cus i wanted to take foto wif it...at nite de selected place for dinner was near de entrance to the trekking site...quite romatically interesting...nice place to dine...but de walk back to de hotel was scary but yet sorta memorable...cus we saw fireflies...end of day 2</span><br /><span style="color:#00cccc;"></span><br /><span style="color:#00cccc;">Day 3 was sky venture n outdoor theme park....sky venture was damn fun...Rennie de dumbo cldn't seem to fly...lol!!! den those guy who went in n came out had really ugly hairdo...cus de 200km/hr wind inside sorta pushed their hair out by the holes in de helmet...so they were sticking out very oddly...had our videos taken n i heard one of de lecturer will burn into cd for all of us...n we also gettin certs for it...n u noe wat???? they framed up pics of those famous ppl who also did de sky venture...den Ella also got do de sky venture b4 lor...woohoo...=D den de gals actually bonded alot wf de AT guys today...during outdoor theme park...sittin de corkscrew...daring each other to space shot...callin each other hum (hum ji or timid)....turning n hittin each other on the tea cup ride...darin to go w/o a jacket on the spinning thing which was very cold...n much more...den think some1 frm AT likes Ker Ker leh...wahaha...they even called to jio de gals over to play games...i dunno how it went cus after abt 3 games i fell aslp on Feng Xia legs le.... until 4+ den Tingting n Ker Ker they all call me wake up go back own rm de...</span><br /><span style="color:#00cccc;"></span><br /><span style="color:#00cccc;">finally today on de trip home...wahaha...dat AT guy n Desiree kana suan by both de AT n MOT ppl like siao lor...wahaha...den went kl...twin tower things damn ex...mid valley though had sale but got nth much dere too...only gd bargain i got? my tripod stand...only 45 rm ok!!!! wahaha...tall wan summore la...kkk....den ya la...back le...</span><br /><span style="color:#00cccc;"></span><br /><span style="color:#00cccc;">n n n....i wanna do shout out....</span><br /><span style="color:#00cccc;"></span><br /><span style="color:#00cccc;">to my De Fuzion classmates: thanx for lookin after me when i was sick...it felt great to be able to bond wif u gals over this trip...</span><br /><span style="color:#00cccc;"></span><br /><span style="color:#00cccc;">to JJJ: u all ps me....go cityhall nv jio....den den den u stupid Bunny!!! bluff me!!!! wat walkin home wat no key take my key....ggrrrr...ni men pian wo....but seriously...i love u gals!!!!! irritatigly cute n irrisistably adorable...u gals nv fail to put dat S in place...S for surprise...S for dat smile u gals always put on me...sickenin asses!!!! especially dat Joyce!!!!!! u n ur idea for my name huh...i still wanna throw pillow at u!!!!!! wahahaha</span><br /><span style="color:#00cccc;"></span><br /><span style="color:#00cccc;">to PhatGalz: u gals got prac when i'm gone wan anot huh? can't wait to see ya gals agn soon!!!! cus we're superly runnin out of time le...must prac hard k...=) </span><br /><span style="color:#00cccc;"></span><br /><span style="color:#00cccc;">now my own reflections...past 4 days in Genting i sorta felt like i was in de monastry...wahaha...dunno y..mayb it's jus de way things go...i thot lesser n lesser of some1...mayb slowly my circle of frens widen...n my hrt is tryin to contain them all till i haf no space for dat some1 le...i dunno...on my way back this was my theory...now here where i m home...my theory isn't exactly dat...i feel...i still do feel dat smth for dat some1 ba...but...mayb i'm so tired i've been tellin myself to let go le....n i think prolly now is de time...after all i'm nv needed in any1's life...=)</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6999103-114218626389424403?l=chocoholic-05.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Tianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693140454072658691noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6999103.post-1141753833769037972006-03-08T00:07:00.000+08:002006-03-08T01:50:33.846+08:00<span style="color:#ffcccc;">still got more than 24 hrs b4 i leave...yet m i startin to feel de distance already? was initially very happy today despite havin to work 9hrs includin lunch n dinner crowd..cus i getta work wif Ashley my baby...altough today she like weird weird de...but nvm baby...i noe u're jus feelin hurt dats y u said all those k...=D n my erm....disgustingly perverted soupervisor miss Evon Goh!!! lol....she's 1 sick person!!! n to top off all my happiness....n de reasons for my smiles...heh! eh...it's abt some1's tots dat counted ba...ya...but suddenly...later in de nite which jus passed not too long ago...dat person was sorta like...cold? hmm..i dunno...it's like...hu leng hu re feeling...i wish i noe where i stand in dat some1's life...so i'd noe how to go frm here...actually...i dun think its i dunno...but rather i choose not to noe n still continue my ways ba...hai...i jus wanna care...to make sure You ar fine...n make You happy...really...dats all...i think? hmmm....oh well...wateva yea...after all i can nv be de 1...</span><br /><span style="color:#ffcccc;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ffcccc;">i had a dream few days back...de dream was quite clear yet quite blur...it's abt dat some1...it felt very real but yet i noe it can nv happen...prolly dreams will be dreams...n reality? prolly remain as cold n cruel...</span><br /><span style="color:#ffcccc;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ffcccc;">when i'm gone...de ppl i'll miss most will be You...triple JS...my starbust (temp name) gals...my NRA family...n my mama...for sure...=)</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6999103-114175383376903797?l=chocoholic-05.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Tianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693140454072658691noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6999103.post-1141551081649529642006-03-05T16:57:00.000+08:002006-03-05T17:31:21.720+08:00<span style="color:#ffff00;">yest hiphop nite at nus was totally hot...initially wasn't in much of a mood to watch...feelin of rejection? hmm...but somehow the teasin moves n slick struts somehow caught my attention...it managed to stay until de end of de show...den...it soon faded...until Bunny did smth so farni i laffed all my sadness away...lol!!! Bunny was so super embarrased after de incident...okok...i wun ay wat happened...else not only will she not dare to face de other person on dat day...but foreva...lol!!!!! den den den....hmmm...dun wanna say wat happened on this too... but to Jess...i hope u're feelin betta now...wateva it is u still got ya triple JS n ur new grp memrs whom i believe will be dere yea...had macs for dinner...first time i ate on a TRAIN!!!!! omg...break rules until liddat...Glen was worse...eat beef noodles on de train la!!!! best!!!! headed for M.O.S...while walking dere...i managed to tok to Ariel...she really is a nice person to talk to...i din exactly confide but rather shared my joy...part of which i din say...but she noes..last nite's feelings were so mixed...i dunno to feel happy or sad...but now as i look back..i'd rather look towards de happier feeling....n i'll keep goin...thanx to all those who nv discourage me but instead stay arnd n help me thru be it when i feel sad or happy...</span><br /><span style="color:#ffff00;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ffff00;">只能默默的守护着你...因为你的心是属于他的...</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6999103-114155108164952964?l=chocoholic-05.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Tianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693140454072658691noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6999103.post-1141409181740295902006-03-04T01:39:00.000+08:002006-03-04T02:06:21.816+08:00<span style="color:#6633ff;">i think i'm gonna flunk my last paper...some1 hoped for it...n i think de hope will be realised...thanx to my brain cus it cldn't contain ANY info...but i did study ok...at least 2 days b4 n on de day itself...i did!!!! but stil...haiya...den some ppl proud...cus no nid study for last paper...so li hai...dun wan say who hor...i think i lost concentration to study mainly cus of Levis comp ba...i'm like relatively new to even this thing called dance...i'm still new...</span><br /><span style="color:#6633ff;"></span><br /><span style="color:#6633ff;">haiyo...actually i got lots to say de leh...but i now really very tired...cus last nite slept only like...1hr plus 2....so mayb i update after i wake up k....nitez!</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6999103-114140918174029590?l=chocoholic-05.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Tianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693140454072658691noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6999103.post-1141055577456283432006-02-27T23:49:00.000+08:002006-02-27T23:52:57.466+08:00<span style="color:#c0c0c0;">days been bad...threw away was it 7 or 9 marks i dunno...n much more wif de mistakes i made...every1 has smth to be happy abt today except me...n i jus broke my rm window...wat a great day...dissapointed in myself...studies...n frens...i din manage to stay arnd..all i did was crash n intruded into their lives...hmmm...walkin away....</span><br /><span style="color:#c0c0c0;"></span><br /><span style="color:#c0c0c0;">sorry to haf intruded into all of your lives...thanx for everythin...leavin le...bye...=)</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6999103-114105557745628343?l=chocoholic-05.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Tianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693140454072658691noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6999103.post-1140978411115708622006-02-27T02:00:00.000+08:002006-02-27T03:01:09.643+08:00<span style="color:#cc33cc;">initially was feeling happy de...ok...it may b smth simple to many but to me it meant alot...n so the event managed to put this (---> =D) smile on my face for a long time...like i said...some things may be small n mean nothin when done...but to de reciever it can do alot...even a simple word frm some1 today really gave me de drive needed...=) Thanx...though u may not noe whu You ar...</span><br /><span style="color:#cc33cc;"></span><br /><span style="color:#cc33cc;">to triple J: hey gals...thanx alot for bein arnd de past few days...studyin n motivatin me...n also pissin me ok...makin me pek chek...haha...still...sorry for de times i suddenly fall into "depression" mode k...made u all worried le...but well...dun worry bout me ya...i noe 1 day i will still hafta get used to life alone...wahaha...i hope triple J will always remain k...love u gals!!!!</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6999103-114097841111570862?l=chocoholic-05.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Tianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693140454072658691noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6999103.post-1140801728949507652006-02-25T00:44:00.000+08:002006-02-25T01:22:09.003+08:00<span style="color:#ff6600;">de 2 mad woman watched blue film in my hse yest!!!!!! wahaha...ok..i'm kiddin...i noe not farni ok...but the 2 gals last nite were like really mad...describin their dirty acts on msn to poor Bunny..Rino n ME!!!!! yuck!!! </span><br /><span style="color:#ff6600;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ff6600;">Maths paper today sucked..but i was still happy...wahaha...actually i only hope for a pass...as long as i dun repeat de module can le...outside de exam hall i met Qianx n went to studio wif her to slp for awhile b4 i wenta meet Jess...dat gal...no small change to pay for cab den end up de cab driver lugi...only got abt half of de actual amt needed to be paid...but it's only 3 smth la de fare...so not dat bad..den had lunch n slack until Jess went for her paper...eyes was hurtin since mornin den finally after her paper den willin to go co-op...my contacts tore...uncle said i was too violent while rubbin it dats y it chipped...oh well..so i hadta get 1 new contacts on de spot..only 1 side..haha...den dat Joyce FINALLY came...when i called her like...2 n half hrs ago...oh den Jess also bot dis specs...i think it looks nice...green black n white...plastic frame de...ya...den we wenta meet Bunny at sim...after lookin thru de papers agn Jess n i finally decided to go Fullerton to interview for the job...</span><br /><span style="color:#ff6600;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ff6600;">it was sorta scary for me cus first time i apply nite job...pay not bad...$7 per hr...but must work till 6am morn...but i dun mind leh...gd pay...save cab fare cus by de time finish work will haf morn bus le...wahaha..hopefully i get de job..cus den i'll haf xtra income...=) </span><br /><span style="color:#ff6600;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ff6600;">after interview we had dinner at ms foodcourt...n dat was when i suddenly fell into "depression" mode..(i'm sorry gals...to make u all so worried...especially Bunny...it's not ya fault ya...it's jus me who stoned too long dat made me think alot de...dui bu qi) ya...den we sat at de bridge linkin Esplanade n Fullerton for quite some time...talkin...Joyce talked more to Bunny...while Jess n i talked by the rails...was enjoyin de scenary dat i haven seen in many months...but left after much persuasion by Jess...actually ish cus very late le...den some1 was sick n needed to go home...so we left...(i'm not blaming any1...pls dun take it too personally k) </span><br /><span style="color:#ff6600;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ff6600;">n now i'm finally home...blogging one of de longer entries after so long..n i'm finally endin it...</span><br /><span style="color:#ff6600;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ff6600;">~* Triple J will nv need an S...*~</span><br /><span style="color:#ff6600;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ff6600;">-= Where do i stand? How exactly sld i go frm here? i'm clueless.. =-</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6999103-114080172894950765?l=chocoholic-05.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Tianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693140454072658691noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6999103.post-1140533802354506362006-02-21T22:34:00.000+08:002006-02-21T23:03:15.433+08:00i'm human too...jus like every1 else...i gave wat i cld...n still wanna gif wat i may be able to...but wo lei le...wo zhen de lei le...yet i dun wanna stop giving...i dun wanna stop puttin smiles on ppl's face...but at de end of de day...where do i stand? tell me which wld hurt more...havin ur heart constantly goin thru de vicious cycle of healin den slowly allow truth to undo de healing....or havin some1's teeth sink into ur arms? initially i tot it was de external pain dat was hurtin? den...when i dwelled deeper...i realised it was internal...hai..i'm fallin apart...y m i so weak? y cant i be stronger? wld some1...any1..be willin to hold on to the pair of hands dats turnin cold...<br /><br />i've tried givin wat i can...n wld wish to offer more of myself..but...i think wat You wan is not wat i can gif...but rather for me to gif it all away...so now i'm gonna try...n all i hope is dat u'll be happier like b4...=)<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6999103-114053380235450636?l=chocoholic-05.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Tianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693140454072658691noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6999103.post-1140197375465823772006-02-18T01:06:00.000+08:002006-02-18T01:29:35.526+08:00<span style="color:#33ff33;">Sentosa was fun...love my tan..especially de 1 on my back n arm...wahaha...i had lotsa fun despite some ppl bein SO late...okok...no names mentioned...den recently i found dat not only do ppl who loves de beach goes there...it seems like a big hang out place for perverts...dere was this damn guy dat was bio-in our side de gals despite his gf tannin beside him la...den there was de 3 turban guys...who wanted Bunny to take a foto WITH dem...perverts!!! still it was fun...but now de burns hurt alot...den today went to Damen shipyard for this evacuation excercise thing...nice ship they build...stuffy though...but de slide was fun!!! de best part??? we're paid to do this evacuation...how fun is that...be paid jus to wear a life jacket n slide down into a raft...but 1 thing dat started to bother me was dat i feel...can i say outcasted or was i de 1 who drifted frm my classmates...i really dunno...but thruout de trip it was like they 3 always together n i'm..more or less alone...it's makin me dread de upcomin trip even more...i already feel bad enuff dat i'll miss dance n my NRA mates for 4 days...n guess wat...countdown ppl ar gonna haf a performance n...i'll hafta gif it a miss all cus of de trip...sad...really sad...haiz...exams round de corner...dats it! can't stand de tot...bye! </span><br /><span style="color:#33ff33;"></span><br /><span style="color:#33ff33;">my screwed up life...prolly i was de 1 who screwed it...</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6999103-114019737546582377?l=chocoholic-05.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Tianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693140454072658691noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6999103.post-1140000272161403422006-02-15T18:27:00.000+08:002006-02-15T18:44:32.173+08:00<span style="color:#ff0000;">You made me forget my past...n for that..thanx alot..=) i had a great v'day yest!!! but of cus sch first...den went out wif Joyce...haha...Joyce ar Joyce...ok nvm..cannot say!!!! aniwae it was de first time i spent v'day wif so many ppl who loves me n whom i love...wahaha...ok..maybe they dun love me...but i'd still love them...=D although de day was really simple but it was like...one of de most enjoyable v'day i had...thanx to all de bachelorettes dat made it happen...lol!!! but it was a day filled wif love pls...really cld feel it...wif all de hugs n kisses...n some ppl were more lucky to get flowers...(mummy hor??? wahaha) kk...nth much to say actually...so i shall sign off...can't wait for tml...</span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;">treasure those who love u n gif more to de 1 dat you love...</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6999103-114000027216140342?l=chocoholic-05.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Tianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693140454072658691noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6999103.post-1139597085769154162006-02-11T02:25:00.000+08:002006-02-11T02:44:45.846+08:00<span style="color:#ff6600;">eeeyurrr...my darling Luping made me embarassed today la..in canteen 3 i was like listening to mp3...den suddenly i TOT i heard some1 called "darling"....i curious so turn arnd...n sittin jus behind me was like..LUPING!!!! wahaha...so shy la...=X..ya anyway 1 pon de noon class today to collect my sis's result...her teacher super guai lan pls...even to my dad la...can't stand it...wun go into details though....happy dat Ger made it...she idert la...try to scare me by sayin she din make it...haha...my sis...erm...can make it la...but must pray...wahaha...rushed to work after takin her result...den dat Evon ar...wah! she first time nv criticise my hair length leh...super surprised...cus she always complain my hair too long too ugly...but today..she looked at me n said smth like..."skye...u look prettier now"...i totally stunned lor...me buddy actually said dat...i shock la...but really..i was pretty excited to see my buddy...been a long time...but din manage to work wif her...i start work den she jus knock off lor...yaya...my fault...hardly submit schedule...den today stay until 12.30 to wash de bms...now my nails so rough..but anyway...i tot after work i'd be damn tired...yet somehow...tonite...i dun feel like sleepin...i dunno y too...prolly tml snw class will haf a panda...not bad eh...to haf a panda dancin during attachment...haha...</span><br /><span style="color:#ff6600;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ff6600;">You'll nv noe what Your small gestures cld do for others...sometimes it does wonders..</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6999103-113959708576915416?l=chocoholic-05.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Tianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693140454072658691noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6999103.post-1139418479616146702006-02-09T00:52:00.000+08:002006-02-09T01:07:59.656+08:00<span style="color:#66ffff;">my legs ar achin badly...so long nv run den suddenly i ran like...erm...i think got 10 laps ba...on n off got stop of cus...aniwae yest went shoppin...n i went broke buyin things...for ppl dat matters to me...or rather ppl who made it a point to hear me out...took de initiative to...oh well...ya noe la...den...yest shoppin i really walked alot le...i hardly shop pls..plus today's run n routine...omg...i think tml snw my legs prolly wun hold on le...wahaha...but i'd still turn up of cus....oh...n my damn presentation today sucked...lol! still i must thank my classmates for doin so much for de project despite de topic bein so hard to find...heh! even though i always spend more time wif my NRA mates...especially now...i still love my classmates...though they can get a lil mad sometimes...haha...nvm..i noe they dun read my blog de...i love all my mates...n i'm missing my sec sch mates as well as my pri sch bball mates...n my work mates too...argghh!!!! life's 24hr 7 days a week is nv enuff....hmm...haf been over-sensitive today...sorry! especially to de ppl i made worried....thanx for all ya concern...me will be cheerful agn k...=) k la...i tired liao...lemme close my eyes fer awhile...cus ltr still must gif some1 mornin call...haha...zzzz...</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6999103-113941847961614670?l=chocoholic-05.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Tianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693140454072658691noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6999103.post-1139203696828659482006-02-06T13:07:00.000+08:002006-02-06T13:28:16.880+08:00<span style="color:#cc33cc;">woke up yest morn feelin sorta down...its like de moment my mind was conscious i tot of wat some1 told me dat day...smth dat pulled my mood dwn but also became my drive to seek new reason to be happy everyday...nvm if u dun understand..but aniwae at dat moment a senior came to mind..a senior who in her innocence brings joy n comfort to me...n odd enuff de moment i climbed outta bed to peer at my laptop...she came online...i was so happy to see her...n i really wanted to tell her wat made me feel sad...but din...still she had her way of makin things better...or at least make me feel betta...but...me as a piece of crap..cldn't even cheer her up when she was feelin upset in de nite...hai..to me..failing to make some1 happy = a total failure...n dats me...=) but on a briter note...i did lotsa online shoppin yest...cool stuff...den today...=D i shall not say...but it's definitely smth happy...</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6999103-113920369682865948?l=chocoholic-05.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Tianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693140454072658691noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6999103.post-1138978458921002562006-02-03T22:31:00.000+08:002006-02-03T22:54:18.986+08:00<span style="color:#ffff33;">performance today was fun...atmosphere on stage was high...zi high dat is...but today was really very enjoyable...2 performance...1 after another...got to dance wif de pussycat doll gals too...=) happy to be finally be able to share de stage wif my female frens other than Qianx...n i really appreciate my nonsense cousin who made de effort to rush to BA building to catch de performance...thanx a million Gerry...i jus love my mad cuzzie...was also damn happy to see Bunny today...she's really nice to be wif...her company is certainly a place where i'd seek solace...tokin to her makes me feel really comfortable...i'm glad to haf her as a senior...</span><br /><span style="color:#ffff33;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ffff33;">我的天空今天真的很灰</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6999103-113897845892100256?l=chocoholic-05.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Tianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693140454072658691noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6999103.post-1138818158926232032006-02-02T01:57:00.000+08:002006-02-02T02:22:39.023+08:00<span style="color:#993300;">i jus wanna be dere...to hear ur cries..to take ur pain...to understand ur troubles...to bring u smiles n happiness...</span><br /><span style="color:#993300;"></span><br /><span style="color:#993300;">but all i am is a piece of crap...yeah..a freakin lousy piece of crap..dats all..=)</span><br /><span style="color:#993300;"></span><br /><span style="color:#993300;">when darkness befall and covers ur day....</span><br /><span style="color:#993300;">when the brite sunshine suddenly turns grey...</span><br /><span style="color:#993300;">no matter how far...no matter wat place...</span><br /><span style="color:#993300;">a fone call is as far as i m away...</span><br /><span style="color:#993300;"></span><br /><span style="color:#993300;">i'm willin to listen...i'm willin to hear...</span><br /><span style="color:#993300;">to a broken heart or even a tear...</span><br /><span style="color:#993300;">i'll carry ur burdens...though not as a peer...</span><br /><span style="color:#993300;">but dats only if u'll let me in on ur fears...</span><br /><span style="color:#993300;"></span><br /><span style="color:#993300;">i'm not forcin it on...i ain't tryna act keen...</span><br /><span style="color:#993300;">but hoping u'll smile is wat i really mean....</span><br /><span style="color:#993300;">it doesn't matter how i'm feeling within...</span><br /><span style="color:#993300;">long as u guys ar happy...i'll do as it's deemed....</span><br /><span style="color:#993300;"></span><br /><span style="color:#993300;">another piece of junk frm de crap creator...=)</span><br /><span style="color:#993300;"></span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6999103-113881815892623203?l=chocoholic-05.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Tianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693140454072658691noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6999103.post-1138554952470463962006-01-30T00:45:00.000+08:002006-01-30T01:15:52.523+08:00<span style="color:#66cccc;">beautiful fireworks danced by my window last nite...wonderful sight but no 1 to share de moment wif me...aniwae as usual de fireworks brot to me dat familiar sense of excitement...still de tot n missing sense of festive season made me feel empty...but i'm so glad Bunny came online n toked to me...it really helped alot in makin me lose dat emptiness...but my dumb net cut me out...heh! depended on ppl's n wireless la..cus bro cldn't configure mine...so ya i had a nap b4 Mum called me up at 3am to go Chinatown...u wun believe our bargain..$2 for a bunch of pussy willow...$10 for a big red bag to fill it to de rim wif cookies...guess how much smart Skye managed to squeeze in...26 bottles of new year goodies!!! wee!!! so happy la pls...contented wif our buyings...we headed home..reached home abt 5+ already...so tired i jus plopped unto my new bed n slp...n today....it still din feel like new year...de day passed as per normal...only diff was i'm gettin ang pow...weird...y dun i feel excited? </span><br /><span style="color:#66cccc;"></span><br /><span style="color:#66cccc;">how den can i make u all any happier? and less upset....</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6999103-113855495247046396?l=chocoholic-05.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Tianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693140454072658691noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6999103.post-1138425951060419502006-01-28T13:19:00.000+08:002006-01-28T13:25:51.080+08:00<div align="left"><span style="color:#ff6666;">not exactly in de mood for festive season yet...Mum's plannin to go Chinatown later at 3am....suddenly jus dun feel like goin...but i dun wanna gif my Mum any reason to question my exceptions this year...i miss my NRA family...sorta thinkin back on de xmas as well as de new year countdown...missed those times...hmmm...y do i even bother lookin back? i'm jus an unwanted outcast...1st by my own family...den in sch...now here...when will i be able to find a place to permenantly feel belonged? i can't always hide under Mama's wings...</span></div><div align="left"><span style="color:#ff6666;"></span> </div><div align="left"><span style="color:#ff6666;">feen sorta empty w/o u all....</span></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6999103-113842595106041950?l=chocoholic-05.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Tianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693140454072658691noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6999103.post-1138383249960919142006-01-28T01:25:00.000+08:002006-01-28T01:34:09.973+08:00<span style="color:#ffcc99;">thankew Sofan n Joyce for lending me ur items...thanx alot...went only for afternoon tutorial in which i slept thru...den went studio slack arnd...den Jess called...so i left..after all they weren't gonna decorate de booth today...n guess who walked out wif me? haha...dat PFL gal so farni la...but anyway...haiya...wateva la...dun wanna blog liao...shall jus keep it all inside...</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6999103-113838324996091914?l=chocoholic-05.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Tianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693140454072658691noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6999103.post-1138035719880317962006-01-24T00:36:00.000+08:002006-01-24T01:04:50.830+08:00<span style="color:#33ff33;">actually i'm sorta lazy to blog but today jus gave me so many reasons to be happy n so i must take this chance to blog...recently i've hardly been happy...but i m now so must share de joy...i think i was so happy dat Sawah found me easily amused while mummy Qianx tot smth was wrong wif me pls...hahaha...early mornin de sun was suddenly so much brighter...=D dunno y too...-smiles!- walked into class n my frens knew smth had happened...haha...after break wenta sit n study as usual...den me frens were so nice to go co-op to get choc for me n of cus themselves...cus mon is full day lecture vr hard to pass...chocs n swts were our way of pullin thru...happy to see Bunny back in class today too...toked to her last nite...really enjoyed de conversation alot...thankies Bunny...for spendin your time talkin to me...it's gd to haf frens who dares to open up...it doesn't haf to be personal issues but generally it's their genuine n sincerity dat makes me enjoy tokin to them...so yup! i enjoyed tokin to Bunny...b4 class i spoke to Py...casual chat...i suppose it's still not de time for her to open up to me yet ba...but i hope 1 day she will...it's gd to be able to hear ppl out...really...n so dance class started...as usual it was fun! de warm up song was so so motivational!!! hahaha....den after class i toked to Stephy...its been so long since i last spoke de way i did to her...dun ask me how it feels....ask her...haha...</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6999103-113803571988031796?l=chocoholic-05.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Tianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693140454072658691noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6999103.post-1137851311613061222006-01-21T21:35:00.000+08:002006-01-21T21:48:31.713+08:00spent de whole nite talkin to some1 i nv expected i wld...at least not in such a manner but it happened...she's really very nice to company me tok till like 7am???? sacrificed her slp jus to tok to this lousy me...thanx alot gal...even if it was jus to simply hear me out...we talked alot..i managed to see things in a slightly different perception...but i dun like de way she teases me pl...idert gal!!!! hahaha...it feels gd to haf a fren to tok to...it helps...de conversation did not exactly cleared any of my doubts nor answered any of de questions i hold but at least i had some1 to tok it out wif...thanx thanx..still on a brighter note..after abt 1hr plus of sleep i went for class...techniques class was simply so fun today!!!! a lil hard to catch but it's nice...really like de emotions of de dance...hope i can really portray de emotions thru de dance...but i noe i too lousy..haha..aniwae i jus had reunion dinner...ya i noe it's damn early but cus my cuzzies will be abroad by next wk so dats y we push it to a wk forward...yup...dats abt it...work tml den project to be done...de only thing i'm lookin forward to? dance n my NRA mates....i really miss them loads...miss de times where i'd tag along when they go out...it was so fun den...but now? i only see them during class...=( i miss u ppl....<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6999103-113785131161306122?l=chocoholic-05.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Tianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693140454072658691noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6999103.post-1137728968495537772006-01-20T11:36:00.000+08:002006-01-20T11:49:28.506+08:00<span style="color:#ffff00;">idolising does not always equals to love...admiration does not mean dat de 2 ppl has to be together to compliment each other if de admirer can't be like de admired person...assumptions after assumptions...different perceptions ar bein developed....unethical impressions made...does it mean dat when u care more for some1 or tend to lookout more for them..it means that you want to woo them? i really dun understand...questions fills my mind...questions in which i can hardly find answers to...is it true dat answers sometimes sldn't be found? haiya...actually still got lots to type la...but den hor...now goin for break le...when i free den post agn...lots of things to ponder over isn't it? haha...buaiz!</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6999103-113772896849553777?l=chocoholic-05.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Tianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693140454072658691noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6999103.post-1137605253486358812006-01-19T01:21:00.000+08:002006-01-19T01:27:33.500+08:00<span style="color:#6600cc;">i'm sorry...to those whom i made to lie n to the 1 i lied to...but i mean no harm...really...so far wat i lied abt did not hurt did it? i'm sorry...i jus...i can't say...all i can say is sorry...對不起...n to Jessica...thanx alot for helping me...u noe in wat way...thanx...u may think it was nothin but really it helped...if not until now i'd still be thinkin bout it...thanx...</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6999103-113760525348635881?l=chocoholic-05.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Tianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693140454072658691noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6999103.post-1137485771065661022006-01-17T16:01:00.000+08:002006-01-17T16:16:11.080+08:00<span style="color:#ffcccc;">this whole post today is dedicated to de 1 n only Yeah _Yen aka Genius Yen aka naive gal aka Stupid Yen...haha...cus today is her bday...n so i shall take todays post to wish her...n yes...HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY YEN!!!!! heard de breaker accident plan was a success...wahaha...naive as ever la this gal...i bet last nite she had a worryin but hopefully wonderful nite...cus Vonny they all presented her wif a cake b4 de seniors class...followed by a video n song done by Qianx n Sawah...den de prank by Joe..Orange n de rest...so sorry i nv get u anythin gal...but i do hope u enjoyed ur bday...stay happy n smiley!!!! dun always zi bi...n do take care of yaself la...always havin gastric de...haha..kk..i shan't nag...once agn happy bday...omg!! how many times haf i said this? hmm...</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6999103-113748577106566102?l=chocoholic-05.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Tianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693140454072658691noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6999103.post-1137327181360834022006-01-15T19:40:00.000+08:002006-01-15T20:13:01.456+08:00<span style="color:#ff6600;">Congrats to Outfitters n Indi Dolls for clinching 2nd n 3rd respectively...n to SK for getting de best male dancer...2 consecutive yrs de best male dancers ar frm NRA...but let's not forget de others who gave their best n all in dis same competition...n dat's Lil Bratz...JK Scafs...and of cus Dancez Battalion...really proud of all of them...=) NRA RAWKS!!!!!!!!! heh...n now to congrat de other teams too...like de popular Steazers...n de groovy Street Souls..they did great too...</span><br /><span style="color:#ff6600;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ff6600;">had late dinner after Funka...den wenta watch movie...ghost show...how nice pls...omg la...ok! i admit..i no guts wan...dan xiao...scared! laff at me ba...i noe it's very farni...laff ba! i dun care le...last time i dare not admit cus scared ppl laff...but now i dun think much of it...after all every1 has their fears...n dis jus happens to be mine...so ya...chose to sleep thru de show cus i dare not watch...but hearin alone can make me scared...so i din dare go home...n agn poor Yuxin hadta offer her hse to me for de nite agn...sorry Yuxin...to always impose so much trouble for you to hafta keep me...dui bu qi!!! =( thanx so much for puttin me up nite after nite...</span><br /><span style="color:#ff6600;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ff6600;">work today was fun!!! full all-female team we had for mornin shift...Xinyi de soupervisor...Ashley ( my baby ) n myself...how cool is dat..haha..opening was smooth...it was so farni..when Anna made de delivery we din play music..de moment she left we blasted hip hop...wahahaha...dopest n coolest working day since a long time...de dumbest thing dat happened though? my nose bled...where? when i was like in de TOILET!!!!!! how dumb...den went back to shop Xinyi as usual offered me a 1 ltr tub...but it din stop..instead it was like dripping...de sight scared poor Andrea...she so poor thing pls..hadta clean up de drops of blood dat fell on de floor... den much later when de bleedin din stop Xinyi offered a 10 ltr pot instead....stupid la...but it's ok now...</span><br /><span style="color:#ff6600;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ff6600;">are my every doings makin You take steps back? sometimes i wish i cld take things to another level...but i noe it's only a wishful thinkin...n so time after time i will remind myself...hmm...was it somethin i said or did dat is making You avoid me? maybe i'm jus thinkin too much...as usual...</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6999103-113732718136083402?l=chocoholic-05.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Tianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693140454072658691noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6999103.post-1137121867282513262006-01-13T10:59:00.000+08:002006-01-13T11:11:07.296+08:00<span style="color:#000000;">ignorance is bliss...yea i noe it sounds damn cliche but....so damn true...i dun feel gd now...sad? i dunno...feelin sorta torn up...n i really do wanna tear things up...confirmations...1 after another...every one that comes i try to get past it...but it's reachin a point where i sld noe it's a fact i cannot refuse to see...i'm jus like every1...i haf feelings...n it hurts...but as long as u're happy..dats all dat sld matter...so jus lemme continue bein invisible ba...happier off bein unnoticed...=)</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6999103-113712186728251326?l=chocoholic-05.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Tianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693140454072658691noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6999103.post-1137081934834385052006-01-12T23:52:00.000+08:002006-01-13T00:05:34.870+08:00<span style="color:#000099;">it's hurtin...inside n out...but still i'm glad some of what i've been panickin abt de whole day is settled..i've said my thanx so i wun repeat here cus i can't..u noe who u are...=) tml is de semis of Funka...really hope de grps do well...seein all their efforts put in i really hope they do well...n pls to all Funka peeps...take care of urself...be careful n dun hurt urselves (n yes i mean Ariel)...watch ya health ( yes you mummy!!! n Yen...ur bag of med is so horrible) so Jia You peeps!!! i'm glad Ger is ok now...happy to noe they both ok liao...hope to see them quarrel less...haha...</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6999103-113708193483438505?l=chocoholic-05.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Tianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693140454072658691noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6999103.post-1136994394601103612006-01-11T23:38:00.000+08:002006-01-11T23:46:34.613+08:00<span style="color:#cc33cc;">WAH!!!! wat did i say yest leh? omg...i was so emotional la...hahaha....i still got lots of things to write...but i'm sorta lost for words...so will u understand if i put it in chunks here? thanx Ger for still lettin me in on ur life...as for dat person? i haf lots i wanna type but i can't say it here...so only a handful will noe de feelings dat i can't say here..but really..who wld wanna hear me out? i doubt...aniwae i'm startin to enjoy sch..n i believe i will haf more reasons to enjoy it when de time comes...=)</span><br /><span style="color:#cc33cc;"></span><br /><span style="color:#cc33cc;">to those i din think b4 speakin to yest...i'm sorry...let's jus forget bout it k...heh!!!!</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6999103-113699439460110361?l=chocoholic-05.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Tianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693140454072658691noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6999103.post-1136911341356292912006-01-11T00:22:00.000+08:002006-01-11T00:42:21.436+08:00<span style="color:#ff0000;">what can i say? haf we drifted so far u can't even share your prob wif me? haf we reached a stage where u think i'd no longer rush dwn to be wif you when u still need me? no it ain't true...i'm still here for you de way i always had been when we're still in sch...i do still miss de times ok..u used to tell me to move on..i'm tryin but it's hard to...i still worry for you...i'm scared there's no 1 in sch to look after you...dere's no1 who will hear u cry..i noe Mic is dere but when he's not around you? but i guess nevertheless you haf chose it to be this way...n u noe very well i'll respect ur decisions de way u haf always respected mine..so i jus hope n pray dat you'll be safe n sound..n dat dere'll always be another some1 who'll be dere to hear u out..hug u when u cry n be dere at ur every call..still..i do miss u...</span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;">starting to feel empty...feelin discouraged..jus cus it ain't reciprocal...but this sldn't be de case..i still wanna do wat i've been doin...i dun wanna stop..cus it's still dere...but i'm running out of ideas n ways...pls gimme a reason to do better...cus all i wanna do is to serve you...n make u feel happy..loved n cared for...</span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;">haf i gone back to who i was? a pessimist? some1 who cries not jus deep down within but even on de surface? i dun wanna go back to listenin to sad songs n getting all emotional? y is it so hard to sustain wat i haf done to myself to make myself feel so happy de past few months? i jus wanna feel de glass pierce my palm again...n enjoy de dripping of redness from my hand to de floor...de tot is jus so tempting...but nah...i've changed...</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6999103-113691134135629291?l=chocoholic-05.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Tianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693140454072658691noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6999103.post-1136820432034952632006-01-09T23:04:00.000+08:002006-01-09T23:27:12.156+08:00<span style="color:#cc33cc;">first day back in sch wasn't so bad after all...even if it did it was prolly cus it was el tech...haha..oh i got a call from my sec sch teacher today...he asked me to go back to sing for cny performance...it was hard to turn down his request but i dun think i haf de guts...really...plus wat's worse? i suck at singing...wahahaha...Skye is lousy in everything...but though there ar so many reasons to feel at least ok...my mood seems a lil dampen...maybe cus i'm missing some1...n it doesn't help when i can't get things done...i very scared things turn out to be a failure...cus dats who i m..a failure...hai...i'm nv gd at anythin...there's so many things i wanna say but...i dun really enjoy typing it here...really wish i can find frens who will sit down n spend hours wif me...hear me out..i got so much to say..but dun dare to...</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6999103-113682043203495263?l=chocoholic-05.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Tianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693140454072658691noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6999103.post-1136654485049918982006-01-08T01:00:00.000+08:002006-01-08T01:21:25.163+08:00<span style="color:#33ff33;">First n foremost i wanna congratulate de 5 Funka teams which is Lil Bratz...Jk Scafs..Indi Dolls..Outfittest and Battalion on clearing de heats and having all 5 teams in de semis...jia even more you for ya upcomin semis ok!!!! really sorry to Lil Bratz..Outfitters n Jk Scafs for not bein able to be dere to support u all...dui bu qi...as for Indi dolls...u gals were great...n Battalion...really happy to see you all do so well on stage despite all de jokes u gals can crack during practice...it was awesome..really good job..except for de formation n domino effect at de ending...still u gals rawked...den it's dwn to our own Xplosion...floor was really slippery...every1 did great though...i think can consider Dancz Xplosion as a success...</span><br /><span style="color:#33ff33;"></span><br /><span style="color:#33ff33;">was thinkin back on things n events today...n it made me feel inferior...stupid...foolish...but i'm not blaming any1 or anything...it has been totally voluntary...in fact i haf been happy doin all dat i did..bein wif them and all...i enjoy their company but sometimes i jus feel like i dun belong..it ain't cus they make me feel dat way...i jus do...i m jus an xtra..always haf been...always will be...but still thanx to those who made me feel appreciated...especially some1...dat person's words really made me feel a whole lot better but still...facts can nv be changed...i'm jus an xtra who will foreva be willin to volunteer my services to the ppl who made impacts in my life...</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6999103-113665448504991898?l=chocoholic-05.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Tianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693140454072658691noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6999103.post-1136566402881782712006-01-07T00:40:00.000+08:002006-01-07T01:10:50.460+08:00<span style="color:#ffff00;">been feeling really happy since last nite...highness jus got into me...i was jumping to every msn calling...dat's how much joy a simple gesture cld bring...but later in de day my feelings sorta change...starting to feel drifted and far frm a group i nv belonged to...i'm sorry if i made my xtraness obvious..especially if it makes de grp ppl uncomfortable...sorry for my prescence amongst de grp...i noe i'm jus an xtra...sorry...aniwae today's paper was actually ok even though i panicked b4 it...sldn't haf heed dat person's advice to slp...i sld haf stayed up n studied like mad pls...i really panicked la...oh well..test aside..i feelin sorta guilty for sleepin while Battalion was practicin today..din manage to film much cus i slept lor...haiya...stupid me la...rehearsals at Xplosion was ok though...hope tml will be a success...</span><br /><span style="color:#ffff00;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ffff00;">to de Funka grps...JIA YOU!!!!!! you all can do it de!!!! n to a particular grp...dun think so much le....slp well tonite n jus gif ur best tml...=)</span><br /><span style="color:#ffff00;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ffff00;">i still smile when i think back on those nites where your simple gestures makes a difference in my life...it still does...</span><br /><span style="color:#ffff00;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ffff00;"></span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6999103-113656640288178271?l=chocoholic-05.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Tianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693140454072658691noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6999103.post-1136438915062410362006-01-05T13:11:00.000+08:002006-01-05T13:28:35.073+08:00Orange complain my font is small so frm now on my fonts will be this big...wahahaha...must cater to blind ppl like her...=X goin to sch soon...nope i dun haf test but jus go n study lor...den later Battalion will be havin training...go n film them agn...heh!!!! been workin on smth last nite...finally complete but prolly be doin a few more...but sometimes i dunno if i sld be doin all dese...hmm...shan't say much here...jus hope when de time comes dat person will actually like n appraciate it all....but i personally m not satisfied wif wat i've completed...MUST IMPROVE!!!!!!<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6999103-113643891506241036?l=chocoholic-05.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Tianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693140454072658691noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6999103.post-1136390861429152422006-01-04T23:11:00.000+08:002006-01-05T00:07:41.483+08:00<span style="font-size:78%;color:#ffcccc;">my mood really can change in an instance...was listenin to one of my fav piano piece...sundial dreams...it brings back alot of memories n triggers emotions...den after dat i decided to watch a dance video..immediately i forget the emotions dat i had...wow! dance makes me happy...memories n thots makes me...well..not so happy...but yet in life one can't always run away from reality...tian xia mei you bu san de yan xi...no matter how one dances..they will still haf to stop n rest...n dat's when reality strikes....suddenly i miss my sec sch frens n teachers...prolly make a trip down to my Alma Mater tml...i miss dance...i love dance...it feels so gd to dance after 2 lousy papers dat sucked...hahaha...it's weird how i'm feelin guilty of not dancin enuff when i haf been dancin de past few days...mayb cus i haf no rehearsal den i nv really gif my all to practice ba...haiya...goin back to study!!!</span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;color:#ffcccc;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;color:#ffcccc;">i miss you...but wats de point...you don't noe....but it's ok...as long as u're happy..dat's all dat wld matter...</span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;color:#ffcccc;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;color:#ffcccc;">p.s: sorry if my post entry like no link frm 1 topic to de other...learn frm mummy Qianx wan...hahaha..=X</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6999103-113639086142915242?l=chocoholic-05.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Tianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693140454072658691noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6999103.post-1136292519685905572006-01-03T20:38:00.000+08:002006-01-03T22:14:41.920+08:00<span style="font-size:78%;color:#cc33cc;">jus wanna type my tots b4 goin back to study...aniwae first EG2 wasn't dat bad..though i lost 7 confirmed marks already...Eng Mat tml..prolly a failure case...haha...feelin rather fan n lousy today...dunno wat's wif my mood la..maybe cus i'm unable to cheer up de ppl arnd me...worse still if wat i said made it worse...haiya...i'm jus so lousy...k la..dun wanna blog liao...jus hope de ppl arnd me can be less stressed n cheer up!!!!! </span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;color:#cc33cc;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;color:#cc33cc;">Good Luck to all taking papers this whole week!!!!!</span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;color:#cc33cc;"></span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6999103-113629251968590557?l=chocoholic-05.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Tianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693140454072658691noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6999103.post-1136115535571706422006-01-01T18:14:00.000+08:002006-01-01T19:38:55.620+08:00<span style="font-size:78%;color:#ff6600;">performance yest wasn't as bad as i tot....thanx to all those who encouraged me when i was darn nervous...especially Orange who talked to me and really tried to help me overcome my stage-fright...i think last nite was de first time i took so many fotos wif NRA...haha..oh ya...i must thank Minz n Rino for helpin me wif de eyeliner...Qianx wif de eyeshadow...Yen for my hair...n Sawah for somthin i can't say...heh! i think they did a great job...thanx all!!!!! =) counted down at Raffles...we saw fireworks...i dunno but fireworks nv fails to gif me a certain kind of excitement...got sprayed in da face wif foam by unknown ppl...i suppose every1's jus out to haf fun...first meal we all had on 2006? tian ji zhou at Chinatown...great meal but stupid way to end de day...cus we cldn't freakin hell get a cab home...but we managed to send some hm first...hope Ariel is ok now...n Ann!!! i wonder how's her extraction...so lookin forward to Explosion...but first i needta get thru common test...zzzz...really happy bout smth last nite...n i'm burstin to share it...heh!!! -big smilez-</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6999103-113611553557170642?l=chocoholic-05.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Tianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693140454072658691noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6999103.post-1135993926775247432005-12-31T09:46:00.000+08:002005-12-31T09:52:06.786+08:00<span style="font-size:78%;color:#ff0000;">tonite is de nite...nothin else left to say...soon i'll be sayin goodbye to 2005...counting down to 2006 wif my dearest NRA family...new year resolution? to pass exams? haha...no but really...it'll be success of production...NRA bein a happy family...and of cus my family's well bein...signing off wif my luck all sent to de full countdown team performing today...JIA YOU!!!!!! =)</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6999103-113599392677524743?l=chocoholic-05.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Tianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693140454072658691noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6999103.post-1135947609799132302005-12-30T20:50:00.000+08:002005-12-30T21:08:04.160+08:00<span style="font-size:78%;color:#3333ff;">so many things happened last nite at Gotham...wonder how Jeanette is now...really...hai...it jus wasn't NRA's day yest...Outfitters lacked a member...none of de grps sent won...wat's worse was dat de winner last nite really din deserve it..okok..i'm not bein bias but even de ppl behind me were shouting fer Indie dolls n they're not even linked to NRA....it goes to show these ppl were neutral n their choices can't be wrong...but oh well..life's nv fair aint it...hmmm...aniwae i dunno if it's me who's bein over-sensitive or is it really true dat some1's avoidin me...haiya...i dunno la...is it really dat obvious who i'm talkin abt? y is every1 makin de same assumptions? maybe their assumptions ar wrong? omg!!!! pls dun assume...cus i think all of ya assumptions ar WRONG!!! hahaha....okok..finally got our trackpants today...i think it's really nice...but most of de others has a prob wif it...haha..tml is de day...i'm gettin scared...my first major dance performance...really worried...i need a hug!!! =(</span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;color:#3333ff;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;color:#3333ff;">to all de sick puppies like Gladys...mummy Qianx...Steph..Luping..Jefferson..Joe..n Yen..pls take care of yaself!!!!!!! one by one getting sick..gettin injured...pls pls pls...do watch ya own health n safety...hope all of ya get well soon!!!!!</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6999103-113594760979913230?l=chocoholic-05.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Tianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693140454072658691noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6999103.post-1135790276257772472005-12-29T00:53:00.000+08:002005-12-29T01:17:56.316+08:00<span style="font-size:78%;color:#99ff99;">suddenly i dunno how to blog...read a few post jus now...den i started to wonder wat bloggin is all abt? a daily journal? thoughts? a lil memory? those i read were mainly tots...as in they share a lil feelings...what they think of certain issues in life...interesting i must say...it puts my mind to work...and i'm startin to think of issues too...but my kinda issues jus aren't appropriate to be written here...but really..i've been thinkin...i dunno how to feel now...sometimes i feel like goin back to be quiet but i'm enjoyin life now to go back...yet after tryin to join in i feel..XTRA! yes dat's how i feel..everytime wif Battalion when i'm not even half of them...joining mummy Qianx n Sawah when they go out or tok...i mean...it's always betta to haf jus 2 person n not havin me to join them ain't it...oh well...aniwae i'm startin to feel de pressure...feel like quittin work cus i can't meet de minimum criteria of submittin at least 3 days a wk to work...haiz...i'm feelin lousy agn...but as usual there's always smth or rather some1 who always unknowingly makes me smile n really brighten my day...=D heh! filmed Battalion's training agn today...okok! i noe i damn xtra...fine! but it was so hilarious....them stepping on each other's hands n so on...den Ann hadta comment on some1's dress sense...it jus made everythin even more laughable cus i too noticed de change in dat person...when i first entered NRA..dat person appealed to me as damn hip hop..really cool...but now i see a change...dat person's startin to dress more n more like de rest of de more jazz funk gals....haha...k la...i'm really tired...but haven't studied so i'd betta finish this off...but b4 i leave...to those who do read...pls tag....so i'd noe dat ppl do actually read...yup!</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6999103-113579027625777247?l=chocoholic-05.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Tianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693140454072658691noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6999103.post-1135617858964819232005-12-27T01:00:00.000+08:002005-12-27T01:24:19.006+08:00<span style="font-size:78%;color:#ffcccc;">first thing in de morn i had tuition...it's really de moment i woke up la...damn shagged but still...managed to understand wat de tutor was sayin so not bad...haha...after dat wenta sch...actually to pei mummy Qianx...so ya la...me always de xtra one...Sam n Yen were like late but when they came they actually brot a cake for Rino to celebrate her bday...den i helped them take farni fotos...watched and video them training AND slacking around...hilarious...but damn it was so hot cus it's public hol so air-con wasn't on..managed to study EG2...a lil...den waited n chit chatted until explosion rehearsal started...surprisingly even after late nites n lack of slp i had lots of energy to gif...even now if any1 were to ask me dance i prolly wun even think of no...but if u threw a bk in my face now i bet i'd slp IMMEDIATELY....wahahaha!!!!!! was initially in a bad mood...but now...when i think back of de farni things dat happened i'm feelin betta n happier..i guess dat's how it is if 1 doesn't brood over unhappy stuff...oh n btw...NRA peeps...pls be really careful wif ya bling blings n stuff...things ar goin missing...do take care!!!!!! oh n leavin lil msges...Rino: HaPpY BuRfDaY!!!! finally 17 =)...Sam: pls take gd care of ya hand...u wun wanna go thru de dumbness of payin de stupid doc jus for him to inflict more pain fer ya...haha...</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6999103-113561785896481923?l=chocoholic-05.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Tianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693140454072658691noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6999103.post-1135530839099447262005-12-26T00:39:00.000+08:002005-12-26T01:13:59.156+08:00<span style="font-size:78%;color:#ffff33;">i'm havin mixed feelings...both sad n happi ones...maybe i sld tok bout happy ones first k...i've been happy shopping for gifts de past few days b4 xmas..missed out quite a few but for mass gift buying this is my first time...so sorry to those i missed out...but de best of all? i'm happy giving to give out so much gifts..really..it's been an achievement for me..i hardly buy gifts..n even happier if the people recieving do not noe it's me...for some...=) another big reason y i'm happy is cus i'm on tokin terms wif Minz...i noe this sounds stupid but i m happy ok...maybe cus last time when we nv really tok..so i'm glad now we do...de greatest thing to be happy abt is cus i celebrated x'mas wif my NRA family...woohooo!!!! dopest christmas!!! picked up new things while i was dere...we learnt ballroom dancin...so interesting...had my first dance wif Glen...subsequently it was me who took de initiative to ask my seniors for a dance...haha...rejected some1's offer to dance quite a few times...maybe i'm jus over-sensitive but i sorta feel akward? oh well...only mummy Qianx will noe wat i'm tokin bout...but finally when every1 has settled dwn things din look too gd...some1 was upset...some1 was down...and me? i jus wanted a drink...yet my senior keep thinkin i'll get drunk...i noe dat person cares and mayb dat person jus happened to express it very differently...but oh well...think dat person got quite pissed at me...cus after that de person sorta ignored me...or mayb i'm jus bein over-sensitive agn...actually during ballroom dancin i wanted to ask dat person fer a dance..but..dat person like always nv arnd...sometimes i also dunno wat i feel for dat person? admiration? maybe...but wat i do noe fer sure is i hope 1 day i can be dat person's best fren...or rather..dat person's guardian and continue doing things anonymously...</span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;color:#ffff33;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;color:#ffff33;">Why is it ppl do not look beside them and yet continue to look so far ahead that they miss what WAS close to them...</span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;color:#ffff33;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;color:#ffff33;">Merry Xmas to all!!!!! oh! and thanx a million to de committee dat made NRA countdown party possible....</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6999103-113553083909944726?l=chocoholic-05.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Tianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693140454072658691noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6999103.post-1135258862441189922005-12-22T21:28:00.000+08:002005-12-22T21:41:02.453+08:00<span style="font-size:78%;color:#cc33cc;">i admit i was affected when some1 told me smth...i dun wanna be...went xmas shoppin wif Stephy agn after work...oh btw work was actually fun today...ya den todays shoppin though din manage get every1's gift but still quite satisfied wif it...den i dunno y but suddenly i jus feel upset..mayb cus i was still broodin over smth i sldn't be...but well it caused me to re-think abt de gifts i haf got fer ppl arnd me...suddenly i feel they deserve betta n cus of this i felt sorta inferior...so i had second tots bout givin them de pressie....maybe i'll decide agn later or so...oh n both dat mummy Qianx n Sawah is so irritating..say got smth to send me yet until now still not online...makin my hrt itchy leh...anywae de tot of de day is sld i or sld i not? hmm....</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6999103-113525886244118992?l=chocoholic-05.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Tianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693140454072658691noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6999103.post-1135186085162246972005-12-22T01:20:00.000+08:002005-12-22T01:28:05.173+08:00<span style="font-size:78%;color:#ff6600;">saw a deeper side of my NRA frens today...the inner them...the side that they hide away frm others...i saw it today...it's sad to see my frens feelin so dwn but i cldn't do anythin to cheer them up today...cus i jus wasn't in de mood...i admit i too wasn't in de rite mind to comfort them but y m i feelin so distracted? y? i sldn't be...it doesn't concern me...all i sld be thinkin bout is dance n test...not things dat i can't control or decide...anyway wenta do some shoppin wif Stephy today...was tirin but fun...den after rehearsals i was totally shagged...arr!!!!! cannot...i must haf de energy!!!! oh ya....i wenta Jac's hse..been a long time since i felt comfy in her hse...took de chance to drink to my hrt's content...but i'm still darn clear...oh well...had lotsa fun wif Hannah's fren...she's so farni la...hilarious stuff...aniwae i dun wanna be upset...n so i shall jus enjoy life...enjoy dance...</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6999103-113518608516224697?l=chocoholic-05.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Tianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693140454072658691noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6999103.post-1135101938151726612005-12-21T01:52:00.000+08:002005-12-21T02:05:38.196+08:00<span style="font-size:78%;color:#336666;">today i finally went back to listening to de more emotional songs n it touched a side of me dat i haf been ignorin fer quite some time....it reminded me of my best fren...i really miss u Ger...when i think back i feel a lil guilty...over de past 2 days i unknowingly gave some1 de kind of care i wld only gif to Ade...n it makes me feel guilty...cus i noe no1 can replace Ade in my life...yet at de same time this person gives me de sorta feeling dat makes me wanna care so much...maybe i'm thinkin too much...every1 is equal...mayb i jus miss Ger too much...but really...i miss de times we always get into trouble n how we're always dere fer each other...but i guess it's time to move on...i sld too...aniwae i'm so angry at myself fer not goin fer today's rehearsal...cus i hadta go fer dis stupid field trip to shipyards...boring like shit...but it is also thru this trip i feel i may wanna take safety officer job fer attatchment...whahaha...my teacher says suit me cus i very loud...humph! anyway i actually missed mummy Qianx today...like wow! i miss her leh...think i'm really gonna get so atached to this mummy of mine too...wahaha...i love my mummies....n i also miss some1....haha..but i shan't name who...=P</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6999103-113510193815172661?l=chocoholic-05.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Tianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693140454072658691noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6999103.post-1135005875302109502005-12-19T23:13:00.000+08:002005-12-19T23:24:35.340+08:00<span style="font-size:78%;color:#ff9900;">woke up feeling very happy today...dunno y too...maybe cus i've missed dance too much...maybe cus...i dunno..but anyway woke up really early today to b an xtra...for filmin...but made no diff outside de scene i guess...cus i was indeed an xtra even when i joined Qianx's frens to buy their things..den ltr to Beach Rd...ok...i feel super duper xtra today...but yet at de same time it felt comfortable...i'm so contradicting...but wat i mean is i feel xtra today cus i'm not even in battalion n neither was i even part of funka yet i went Beach Rd wif them to buy their things...i dun think there can be any1 more xtra than me...but yet it felt comfortable cus these ppl did not exactly pai chi me...they were really nice...even made a badge fer me...so swt of them la...oh den i did some xmas shoppin today...like so finally la...but only managed to get a few...hopefully i get it done soon...i really dun wanna miss out ppl...happy wif my buyings today though i'm really broke now....especially dat 1 gift...heh!!!</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6999103-113500587530210950?l=chocoholic-05.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Tianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693140454072658691noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6999103.post-1134839947918183772005-12-18T01:11:00.000+08:002005-12-18T01:28:40.526+08:00<span style="color:#c0c0c0;"><span style="font-size:78%;">i made some1 angry today....all cus of my temper...hai...y did i? how cld i? i tot my wish was to cheer up my seniors and frens when dey ar dwn...yet today i was de cause of it...though i apologised many times n she has already said ok but i still feel bad abt it...these ppl ar my seniors n i din even managed to respect them...maybe i sld jus go back to bein quiet..dat way i wld cause less trouble...really wan to lor but my actual character is not some1 who is quiet...i m a noisy person..moreover i feel so attached to these ppl now dat it'll be damn hard for me to jus stay away frm them...btw de wu lin da hui wasn't as great as i tot it wld be...</span> </span><br /><span style="color:#c0c0c0;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;color:#c0c0c0;">to Yen: dui bu qi...really din mean to show temper n attitude u de...really...i'm sorry...</span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;color:#c0c0c0;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;color:#c0c0c0;">to Bunny: heh...thanx fer tryin to cheer me up wif ya 'Boo!'...sorry to haf shrugged u away though...oh..n thanx fer winning..=D</span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;color:#c0c0c0;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;color:#c0c0c0;">to Qianx: thanx so much fer takin ur precious training time to come out n tok to me...sorry to put u in sucha spot...n also my attitude...</span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;color:#c0c0c0;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;color:#c0c0c0;">Basically it's jus a sorry n thanx to dis 3 ppl...though i doubt any of this 3 ppl reads it...but if they do...i'm really sorry..</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6999103-113483994791818377?l=chocoholic-05.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Tianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693140454072658691noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6999103.post-1134754489767808572005-12-16T23:43:00.000+08:002005-12-17T01:36:53.626+08:00<span style="font-size:78%;color:#33ff33;">haf been quite lazy to blog these days though i haf lots to write but today i haf come to make de effort cus i'm burstin wif happiness...excitement...joy...all cus my fav grp made alot of effort to try and make de best out of de most liveless place...i think although they weren't on their best form but can really see their efforts...n i think it paid off...it's really a pity dat i dun haf de vid..hai..another vid less...but oh well..at least i saw it..n i'll jus keep it in my mind n hrt den...offered a few of them my stinkin towel and guess wat? Jeanette left me a souvenior frm this performance...her make-up on de towel...hahaha...not her fault la...i told her to jus clean de...so ya lor...de mes celebration was ok except fer de disgusting part..smth i dun wanna mention...but aniwae jus goin back to de studio made me happier...but was dance sick agn when i joined my sis at SP....i think time jus makes me more bonded to NRA more by the sec..aniwae thurs is a bad n gd day for me...bad cus that was my second failed attempt on a blood donation..wth..but gd cus i was out wif ma NRA family..went fer mng sales..some cute soul bot a bag fer her mum la..saw Rachel (my cuzzie) there too..den walked to de Adidas shop beside...n Vonny spotted a boots she liked..i think it looks nice too..fits de color combi of wat some1 bot fer her..den wenta watch King Kong...u sld see de way we smuggled de kfc in..all our bags were like over stuffed lor..hahah..it was such a funny sight...den de movie's start was boring..almost cld slp..but de middle part really very scary and farni both at de same time..some parts were scary like those big bugs...n some ppl was so scared they grabbed my arm la...i shan't say who leh..later they shy..n i must say..pls nv try to eat while watchin dis show..cus some parts can get quite gory...totally upsets ur stomache la..but it's really hilarious..de way they portray King Kong's attitude to be...attitude monkey la..haha...den de ending is so sad lor...was touched but of cus i'm not 1 who shows such emotion so openly...but some ppl cried...i think it's really an awesome movie...it's worth watchin though very predictable but it's not de ending but rather de process dat's worth watchin...yup..den went DXO wif Orange n Rino they all..go suport joe n de brkerz fer their performance...aniwae there's smth dat happened dat made me both happy n upset dat day...happy cus some1 showed care but sad cus it was inconsistent...wun say more bout it...=) shall leave wif a quote which i find very close to wat i'm feeling....<br /><br />-=Everynite i'm waiting for somethin to happen but sometimes it jus doesn't=-</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6999103-113475448976780857?l=chocoholic-05.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Tianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693140454072658691noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6999103.post-1134474128527095632005-12-13T19:09:00.000+08:002005-12-13T19:55:54.400+08:00<span style="font-size:78%;color:#3333ff;">Ger has flown back to HK...n i haven even gotten de chance to go out wif her...only knew she was goin back this morning when she smsed me...really miss my best fren lots...hope she haf a safe journey...can't wait fer her return...haha..n it's only like less than 24hrs dat she left on de plane...</span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;color:#ffccff;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;color:#ffccff;">aniwae i was blog hopping jus now and i realised dat there's so many ppl arnd me who ar well...not in their best of moods recently...some entries ar filled wif anger...hate...but mostly it's abt sad emotions they are going thru...be it frenship or r/s...and yet when i see these ppl face to face they always appear to be ok...or at least they try...even though i'm not close to some of them i still feel affected in some sense? i really dun wanna see my frens n seniors upset...many times i feel lousy cus i nv seem to be able to do anything...not even hear them out cus i dun think they feel close enuff to me to be able to actually sit dwn n relate their feelings to me...but i hope 1 day...dat de day wld come when they wld seek comfort in sharing things wif me...n so to all those sad ppl...i hope you do cheer up soon....=)</span><br /><br /><span style="font-size:78%;"><span style="color:#ffccff;">jus realised dat recently i haf been bloggin a lil too deep into my inner feelings...somethin i prolly sldn't be doin...not dat it's bad or wat but jus feel dat things may be betta if i keep it in...in some ways i fear it causes changes around me...more so if de changes ar those that will be harder for me to adapt...but sometimes it really jus does feel betta to haf an outlet...</span><span style="color:#ffccff;">aniwae today's a miracle...i actually slept at 4+ last nite n woke up at like 7? but i din feel tired at all...maybe cus i was too happy...heh! for some reason i jus m....even now when i think back on dat moment...it still brings a smile to my face....ok...dun think i sld go into details...shall end this post wif yet another lousy poem</span></span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;color:#ffccff;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;color:#3333ff;">The time has come again..</span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;color:#3333ff;">Where my feelings flow thru my pen...</span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;color:#3333ff;">penning down in length...</span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;color:#3333ff;">from my hrt unto my hand...</span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;color:#3333ff;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;color:#3333ff;">even now i m still thinking...</span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;color:#3333ff;">abt dat nite you left me sinking...</span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;color:#3333ff;">into a place that has no landing...</span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;color:#3333ff;">simply cus you kept me smiling...</span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;color:#3333ff;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;color:#3333ff;">that little comfort i seeked in you...</span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;color:#3333ff;">made everything seems wonderful...</span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;color:#3333ff;">even though someone drenched my mood...</span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;color:#3333ff;">but you cheered me up too soon..=)</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6999103-113447412852709563?l=chocoholic-05.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Tianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693140454072658691noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6999103.post-1134402635942822922005-12-12T23:38:00.000+08:002005-12-12T23:50:35.953+08:00<span style="font-size:78%;color:#ffff00;">almost missed my eng drawing test today...thanx to de next class ppl who reminded me..thanx alot...managed to finish drawing...i guess...so not dat bad la...mind jus wasn't on focus today...dun ask me y...aniwae spent my time in class writing songs n poems instead...(omg! skye...wat u tryin to do sia????) anyway i suppose i was lookin forward to practice...took de second class today...while waiting i manged to tok to Daphne and she has been so nice to agree to help me clean up my dumb song...(thanx Daphne) and so class was tiring but fun as usual...after dat i messed arnd wif de pussycat doll gals dwnstairs at de green patch...it's always fun tryina be sexy...lol! actually had a hrt to hrt tok wif Sawah today...(sorry Ariel...not dat i dun trust u or wat...i'm jus too unsure to say anythin yet...) it feels so much betta to actually be able to pour out my feelings to some1 from NRA...nv tot de day wld come...to Qianx n Sawah...thanx for caring...but wateva it is it's not a big deal ya...so pls dun worry for me...i guess dat's abt it...i'll leave wif a poem i wrote in class today...pls dun anyhow intepret and assume anythin ok...it's jus a poem...</span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;color:#33ccff;">During my search for passion...</span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;color:#33ccff;">i managed to find someone...</span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;color:#33ccff;">who shares the same obsession...</span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;color:#33ccff;">and defination of fun...</span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;color:#33ccff;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;color:#33ccff;">She's really very outgoing...</span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;color:#33ccff;">which makes her really loud..</span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;color:#33ccff;">but then there's times she quietens down...</span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;color:#33ccff;">and walks away from crowd...</span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;color:#33ccff;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;color:#33ccff;">From time to time i notice more...</span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;color:#33ccff;">abt the way that she behaves...</span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;color:#33ccff;">she's really very observant...</span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;color:#33ccff;">and a guardian to her frens...</span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;color:#33ccff;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;color:#33ccff;">i swear she's really very nice...</span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;color:#33ccff;">charismatic i should say...</span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;color:#33ccff;">for she always attracts bigger crowds...</span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;color:#33ccff;">good or bad? you'll have ur say...</span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;"></span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6999103-113440263594282292?l=chocoholic-05.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Tianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14693140454072658691noreply@blogger.com0